This is a video that my friends made for a group project in a class we took. I think it is pretty sweet, so I am sharing it with all of you. Hopefully they don’t mind!
It is simply amazing how I really have a lot to share with people and can imagine the perfect talks, but when I get up to do them I completely freak out and lose everything that I wanted to say.
Tonight, in about 4 hours, I will be standing (maybe sitting…) in front of a group (20 or 30 or 40 or 15 or who knows) of college people from the school I graduated from last year, to give a talk. There is no particular theme that I need to stick to. It is me getting up there and letting all out that I want to share and pray that it reaches to someone somewhere in the pews. It is not a huge formal deal, but rather at Power Hour. No, not drinking, a praise and worship club that meets on Mondays to life all up to the Lord.
I know I have things to say, I have now talked them out with some people and know the base idea of what I want to say, but really, me standing in front of people, oy. As the time gets closer, and despites my succeeding efforts to try to remain calm, my stomach is all in a twist, unsure of what is really to come. How bad can it be? I sang a song in front of everyone last year, and that was terrifying enough the way it was!
The plan is this. I am going to start out telling people who I am, and what I graduated with, just in perspective, you know? I was given the idea to start with most recent news, then go back to the beginning. How far back is still up in the air. The base theme is how God meets up where we are and will work in our lives how he wants, no matter how things are doing in our lives. Even when we feel set up to fail, he is there. There is also going ot be the reminder that we need to look past everything, even the usual go to mass, to see that God may appear in random location and times to us.
I will give what I talked about in my next post, as if I say here, it is bound to change in the next four hours. Pray…I need it! Peace!
The following is a video that was created to promote Hiawatha Valley TEC #61 during the spring semester 2009 at Saint Mary’s University. This was during my senior year, which was this past school year. First sleeping person is the campus minister. Second sleeping person is the secretary (she is amazing). Third sleeping person is the assistant campus minister. Those on the couch are friends of mine. The one terrorizing the place is a good friend of mine, we were in the same department. The voice over is a friend too, we both studied Pastoral and Youth Ministry. Enjoy!
I love TEC, it is a wonderful thing! To learn more and find one in you area, click here. This program was and still is a huge part of helping me become who I am to be in God’s eyes! It makes me smile!
In our discipleship we give of our time, talent, and treasure in various forms and ways. Here are some of my thoughts on the topic of talent.
Talent is something that people tend to think they have none of or they do not see what others see in them as a talent they have. Talent is also something that can be quite the opposite and be something that people thing they have the best of, that no one can be better. Neither of these are good for us. Everyone has a talent of something they can contribute to the world, but we need to make sure that even when we know it we are not gloating of the things we are really good at. Then there is a balance between people knowing your talents and sharing them with the point it becomes too much. So what are your talents, how can you use them, and what roles do they play in various parts of life? Well, here is my story on these thought-provoking questions.
I used to think that there was not much talent to me, but the first thing that opened myself up was the fact I went to Girl Scout camp. When I became a staff at the camp, I discovered that I was able to support the other staff, do real well at taking care of my cabin of girls, and just being a good presence at the camp. The ability to become an emergent leader was appearing in me, as well as doing very well at the games. I love games, no questions, hands down. The thing, though, that came with these “talents” of mine was the needing to start looking at time I spend focusing each of my talents for who they are for.
This carried into my college life. As I posted in my last post, managing time and where I put my time is vital to my relationship with the God three in one, my vocation, and my ministry. Recognizing and developing the talents I have is important as well. This is connection I started to really notice and came to work on more during my senior year of college. Sure, I was doing that throughout all of my college career, but junior year leading into senior year it was more predominant. By time senior year came and was going, I was always looking to help in campus ministry and did almost everything at campus masses. By everything I mean I was a liturgical coordinator, lector, Eucharistic Minister, altar server, greeter, and I sang in the choir. There was rarely a mass that went by that I was at that I did not do something unless I asked someone to take my place. The thing it, I wanted to make sure everything was taken care of, so I did what I was assigned and even subbed in when others would not when people were gone. I loved it and I was good at it. Our campus minister came to rely on me to make sure things were happening at mass and problems were solved so that she could better focus on the music aspect of weekend masses. It was great experience and she really pushed me out of my box to do what she knew I could do. There was a real talent there and I was using it for God and the community I was living and praying in. What I had to become aware of was that even though I was good at it all, helping at mass and other campus ministry things, I needed to not engulf my time in just my ministry. I was bogged down more than ever and realized that with the deep struggles I was having, I needed to take time for myself and allow myself to be at mass as well as participate in things with out helping.
Now being out east, I have noticed that some of the things that I loved to do for others and the things I loved to do being on Saint Mary’s campus, I am unable to do. There has come the realization that talent is not just what I share with others, but again, something I share with myself and with God. Not all talent is visible to the world. Something I was being taught to develop in college has more fully come to my awareness. I have a certain talent of being able to be in the moment, be a silent presence to others and for myself. To be able to take the time to focus in on my relationship with God, with Jesus, and with the Spirit is not an easy thing that came to me. Knowing when I need those moments of peace and quiet or my christian music blaring so I can jam is in some aspect, a talent. This may all be strange to you, but I believe it is good to look at these aspects as well.
There are of course many talents that I wish I could have. I am a very behind the scenes person, or being strange in a skit person. I love being the person who is present to those who are needing someone to pray for them or to lend a ear or even some kind true words. There is the desire to be able to share my story with people in giving talks/presentations in front of people, being more comfortable with standing in front of others as well as being able to express myself in words more clearly. I do have a lot to share, but I wish I was a bit more brave. Now, if you look at what is said in the commandments, we are not to covet our neighbors goods. Does this include talents we wish we had? I think if we wish for them in a healthy way, which includes developing them, then it is okay. We must not just wish we had some trait or talent, but rather if we want it, we must work towards it. It is also important to know that we are all given different talents to use at different times.
Looking now to my preparation for formation to hopefully become a sister, I ponder where talent fits in with it all. Going back to how I worked at a camp, I loved being there and the girls seemed to really love me (I am not saying this with an ego, it has been said to me as well). Parents would tell me that there girl was wondering the whole drive to camp if Speedy (my camp name) was going to be there. Through that, I knew I had a talent of being a camp counselor despite how other staff and higher ups would treat me and others. With the Salesians, they work primarily for the youth in camps, retreats, youth centers, school, ministry, and wherever else the youth are. It suits me…minus the teaching this which terrifies me. Being able to develop my talents and use them within the religious community is important to me, but I need to be mindful of what is expected in the community, not overstepping anything or anyone and adjusting. Being aware of and not letting go of what I am good at and cherish is something I will need to be sure of. This too, of course, comes with stipulations. God calls us continually to different things in different ways, while maintaining the strand that hold us together as a person. In feeling a pull for religious life, things will change, and being open is so important, as it is in everything in life. I pray that I may realize my talents as they are in my life and know when the appropriate time for expressing them is.
When I left to go make my TEC retreat as a TECite, I had no idea what to expect. For those who don’t know, TEC stands for Together (or Teens) Encountering Christ. It is a three day retreat focused on the Paschal Mystery. When the bus pulled up and we got out, we were all greeted by people in bright colored shirts. On top of that, there were two team members that were rollerskating around the main room dressed in full panda suits. A couple of us looked at each other, and almost ran the other direction, but something about it was so exciting! Not the point, yet very fun information.
The first day of a TEC retreat is called Die Day. As depressing as it may sound, it is so very powerful. Let Go and Let God is the common phrase we start to hear, followed by Don’t Anticipate, Participate! We went through reconciliation, which was so good.
The second day is Rise Day. At this particular TEC, we were woken up with banging pots and pans. Pretty much can guarantee you that I was definitely startled. It was such a good day. We had mass, a special dinner, and an awesome ceremony. I loved it.
The third day is Go Day. Basic idea is going into the word and sharing the love of Christ. By this point, we all know each other better and it is really good to just hang out.
All through the weekend, there were various talks that were given by team members. The random surprises throughout the weekend were great too! There was a community that I felt there that has stuck with me for a very long time. Out of all the TECs that occurred in my four years at Saint Mary’s, I only missed one because of a band concert. I truely believe that this retreat that I made and then worked numerous times, was the source of the growing passion within me.