Monthly Archives: April 2010

Mary’s Way of the Cross

This past Triduum Retreat at the MFRC, I put together a Way of the Cross that was from Mary’s point of view.  It was very interesting to read reflections that could very well be what Mary was thinking.  Instead of putting the whole stations right into the post, I have attached the document I put together.  This is a great meditation to do, please take a look!

Mary’s Way of the Cross

Feel free to comment, I love to hear what people think of it or if they have any ideas on what could be improved.  I did do a leaders guide with what props we set out, but it is more specific to our location.  Enjoy!

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Posted by on April 30, 2010 in Uncategorized


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Give Me Your Eyes

I would like to share with you one of my favorite songs, and yes there are many.  This is “Give Me Your Eyes” by Brandon Heath.  Looking for the lyrics, I stumbled upon the story behind the song…

“I wrote a lot of songs for this new record. ‘Give Me Your Eyes’ was one of the first that really stuck out. I co-wrote it with Jason Ingram, and musically, it has a hip-hop flavor to it. The song was inspired from the idea that every once in a while, God gives us His eyes. You tend to see a lot of different kinds of people in places like airports. Sometimes, usually only for a few moments, I feel like God gives me true compassion for those people around me. I think that the longer I get to know the character of Jesus, the more compassion I personally have for others. ‘Give Me Your Eyes’ is saying; ‘Jesus give me your eyes so that I can see people the way you see people, so I can love people the way you love people.’ One of the core goals of my ministry is focused on striking up conversations about social injustices around the world and being a voice for those who have often been silenced by poverty or lack of influence. I want to challenge people more. ‘Give Me Your Eyes’ does that. It is one thing to have compassion and quite another to act on it. Most times, it starts with the people around you.”  Brandon Heath

Now that you have read the story, let the song really talk to you.  What does it mean to you personally?  What things come to mind?  Focus on the video, close your eyes and listen, or do both (of course, needing to listen to it twice might be the case).

Now that you have listened to it and have some thoughts and feelings running through your mind, here are the lyrics.  Some people like to see the words.  It definitely helps with memory.

Look down from a broken sky
Traced out by the city lights
My world from a mile high
Best seat in the house tonight

Touch down on the cold black top
Hold on for the sudden stop
Breath in the familiar shock
Of confusion and chaos

All those people going somewhere
Why have I never cared

Give me your eyes for just one second
Give me your eyes so I can see
Everything that I keep missing
Give me your love for humanity
Give me your arms for the broken hearted
The ones that are far beyond my reach
Give me you heart for the ones forgotten
Give me your eyes so I can see

Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah

Step out on a busy street
See a girl and our eyes meet
Does her best to smile at me
To hide what’s underneath

There’s a man just to her right
Black suit and a bright red tie
To ashamed to tell his wife
He’s out of work, he’s buying time

Pre Chorus / Chorus

I’ve been here a million times
A couple of million eyes
Just move and pass me by
I swear I never thought that I was wrong
I need a second glance
Give me a second chance
To see the way you’ve seen the people all along


There are times we do see what God sees.  Do we help?  Do we pass on by?  Other times we don’t even notice the people around us.  We are so enveloped in our own world, we can forget the world around us.

As I continue in my discernment process, I pray for many things.  Strength and understanding are among the top.  Knowing God’s plan for me I believe tops it all.  Another thing I have come to hope for is that I will see things around me and react in a way that God would want me to react.  Of course we can not reach everyone, nor do we all have the talents for everything.

I have worked at a Girl Scout camp before, approximately four summers.  Kids appear to be who I want to work for.  I love retreat work, started with TEC Retreats.  Supposedly the retreat world is where I am to be.  Applying to enter formation for religious life (and hoping they accept me, that God accepts me too) is my step to hopefully be the hands, feet, and heart of Jesus to the world.

I like this one particular line from what Brandon Heath says when talking about this song.  It is a prayer we should all say.  So I will leave you with these questions, the song with lyrics, thoughts of the artist’s as well as mine, and this little prayer taken from above.

Jesus give me your eyes so that I can see people the way you see people, so I can love people the way you love people.  Amen


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Pleasing to You

“May the words of my mouth and the meditations of my heart be pleasing in your sight, O Lord my Rock and my Redeemer.” Psalm 19:14

Each and everyday, this is what we should be aware of.  Is everything that comes out of your mouth pleasing to God?  Is everything you do pleasing to God?  Is everything in your heart pleasing to God?  These are questions I think about everyday, only at the end of the day when I realized where I went wrong.  It can get one real down on themselves.

This should not be how it is!  We need to be praying about our day the moment we wake in the morning.  The prayer should be for what we say and do, so that it all is pleasing to God.  Many times, we groan when the alarm goes off, drag our feet to the shower, eat breakfast, realize we are late, and run out the door.  All prayer needs is just a quick moment as we lay, waking up, in our bed.  That simple prayer you have in the morning has so much power to change your day and your outlook on the things that happen.

Each day as I wait for my letter, hopefully follow by waiting to enter, I try to remember where I am in the here and now.  Sometimes getting caught up too much in the stresses of now sends me completely astray and I am not saying and doing things pleasing to God.  Many times I think that the lack of prayer in my mornings sometimes, is what aids the straying from what God wants.  Dedication, that is so huge!

My train of thought (and there are many of them actually,  but one of them) is by getting myself to pray each morning, I will do more things pleasing to God; those things that I do that aren’t pleasing will slowly, but surely, drift away.  When it gets to the point that I God-willing enter formation, I want to be able to put at least most of the things that haunt me to rest.  Sure, it will never permanently leave, but it can be laid to rest.  Prayer and doing things pleasing to God is so important and vital, I can not stress more.  This is what our whole life should be for!

Sigh, oh the day when I can hopefully be so focused on just God and his will.  I just pray that I have it right and then take me in to be a part of them.  Ha, them being the Salesians of course.  Whatever is meant to be, will be.

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Posted by on April 27, 2010 in Inner Reflection


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Reflection Time

I am on a journey.  No, I don’t know where I will end up.  Yeah, I know where I am now.  Do I believe that God is guiding me in all the steps I take in life?  Of course I do.  Are there hard times and periods of difficulty with questions of possible doubt?  Sadly, yes.  We are a human people who are are affected by the evil in the world.  When thinking about entering formation (God-willing), things have come to mind that I will have to let go of.  Of course that is going to be hard!  It doesn’t mean I not ready, or that I am not suited for the life.  It means that I am human, a deep thinker, and just trying to figure things out.  Aren’t we all trying to figure things out?

On of my favorite things to do is to take bible verses and see where they inspire me to go.  My range of verses that I know off the top of my head is small, but when I come across one, I like to look at it and see where it takes me.  Sometimes I reflect on it literally.  Other times it causes me to think a little deeper into myself.  I am going to bring up a couple of my favorites that I use often as I love going back and seeing what new places they take me.  Translations do vary, sure.  When we translate many things in the world, not just bible stuff, various responses do come up.  Each leads us to think about our life in a deeper way, or so we hope!  I found to be a progression in the verses, with my life, that I thought interesting.

“When you search for me, you will find me; if you seek me with all your heart.” Jeremiah 29:13

Seek with all your heart!  Let it all go and seek him!  This, as I have mention many a post ago, was the verse for my TEC retreat.  It is amazing how we think we are putting everything we have into search for the Lord and what he has planned for us.  That was the case for me.  I thought that I was putting everything of me into searching.  This past year, it hit me that I really wasn’t.  I feel that after that moment, I have changed to put myself more fully into the search of God and his plan.  The search is constant, it never stops!  Of course I stray here and there, who can honestly say they never have?  My goal here is to never hold back from the Lord and put my all into the search.

“Do not be afraid” Luke 1:30

Did you know that of all the commands to people that Jesus gave, to not be afraid is the most common one by a long shot?  I do not have my book off hand, but this is the thing that struck me the most.  We are a people afraid, and always have been.  We don’t know what is going to happen.  We don’t know where God will reach us.  We don’t know if we will be ready.  We don’t know a lot of things.  The thing is, God does.  He knows what will happen, where he wants to reach us, and he will make sure we are ready.  We may slow the process down if we are not putting all our heart into the whole search!  As hard as it may be, especially at first, we must not be afraid.  We are taken care of when we trust and let our heart be God’s.

“O Lord, You have seduced me, and I have let myself be seduced.  Your word in my heart is like a consuming fire burning deep within my bones.” Jeremiah 20:7

When I first saw this verse, I was excited.  It puts into words some of what I feel when I get all excited about religious life.  We want the Lord to be in us.  We want to take that feeling of the Lord in us and share that with everyone.  To really know the Lord is wanting to know him more.  We can do that by putting are whole heart into the search, giving it to God.  Oh how afraid we are to let loose and let God take us where He wills!  When you figure something out and are drawn to it, you know it.

Like I have said, you may not know where you will go after the first move, but taking that first move is so vital.  If you go and try something that you think God wants you to do then am not filled with joy, God may change his mind or you need to look a little deeper.  There are lessons in every part of life.  For me, I am taking the step to enter formation.  From there, I hope I found the right path.  I could be a Salesian Sister!  If it is not right, God will tell me.  He may want me to experience it so I know what it is like, but then guide me elsewhere.  I just pray that I always search with all my heart, am not afraid, and will let the Lord burn deep in my bones!

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Posted by on April 24, 2010 in Inner Reflection


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Mail Fake Out

Today the realization came to me about how excited I am to get my letter from the Salesians stating the response to my application.  I asked if Fr. Ted had picked up the mail, and he told me I had something.  I then hurried over to check my box in the office, only to find a magazine for World Vision.  As good as getting that is, I was bummed that the letter was not there.  Does that say something about how I feel about entering formation so that I can God-willing become a sister?  Oh yeah, it does!

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Posted by on April 23, 2010 in Inner Reflection


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There is something magical and special about a fire, one in the form of a “campfire.”  I don’t have much to say about it, but I know that I always long to be back at camp.  One of the big things in that is the longing to be around the campfire.  Since the lessons and stories of fire are on my mind, I have decided to share that all with you.  Below is a poem I just constructed on the whim of my mind.  I hope you find something that draws to you in it! Peace

Oh fire that crackles in the silence of the night

Speak to me even when I am in blinded sight

There are lessons a plenty to be taught

The wisdom that comes through the ages sought

Stories dance in the air around us lingering

Song that will go on forever in our hearts singing

As the past fades away in the dust of eternity

Present pushes on and it closes engulfs me

In the flames the future flickers with hope

Unsure of where flame will leap I pray I cope

Wherever you may be, whoever you will become

There is space for fire, it will still teach you some

Evermore the silence of the night draws my soul

Hearing the glow intrigues me and fills me full

In the moments to come where life finds its way

My vocation religious could maybe be here to stay

When the world crashes and falls around my face

To the fire I will go to be in that special place

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Posted by on April 22, 2010 in Creative Corner, Inner Reflection


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Know Him, Know Him More

Casting Crowns is most days my favorite band ever; I love their music and it has always reached me in a special way.   There is a portion of some lyrics that go as so.

To know You is to want to know You more.

It was not until I saw them in concert a little over a week ago that I really took a moment to soak up this line.  In the talk that Mark Hall (lead singer) gave, he said it again slightly different and it hit me.

To know Him is to want to know Him more.

Wow…what a profound thing to hear, take to heart, and ponder.  Something about it strikes me, but I can not completely put it to words.  It seems that this idea should be in our faith always.

What thoughts, questions, ideas, comments, and anything else come to mind when you read this?


Posted by on April 20, 2010 in Inner Reflection


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