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Live the Dream

Here is a video that I think all of you should see!  It puts such hope and yearning in one’s soul, among other things as well!

 
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Posted by on January 25, 2012 in Inspirational Music, Living Salesian, Videos

 

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Why are you Smiling?

Having arrived back to New Jersey, I find that I am overwhelmed with so many things.  Yet in my appearance, not many would even know so.  Maybe this could be due to the way I am dealing with those things that do overwhelm me in some way, shape, or form.  I am certainly most excited to be back here, there is no doubt about that.  One of the girls asked me today, ” why are you smiling all the time?”  Of course I responded with, “Why not?”  It was not enough of an answer and I knew it, but I wanted to see what she would come up with next for me.  “But really?”  To that I did respond, “Because I am where I am supposed to be and I am happy.”  It rolled right off my tonge and it felt good to say that. 

That statement is such a relief in many ways, even though I am not sure how long before I will need another relief.  Many things are sitting in me.  There is tension, worry, fear, frustration.  The thing to remember and work on is handing it all over.  I may not see eye to eye with those I live with.  I may be fighting a losing battle trying to make amends.  I may do things in a different way and not always be understood.  I may have a lot of other things like that in my life as well, but who is to say that I should let it get in my way.  I see a lot of walls, hurdles, fences, pools, trees, wild animals, and so much more in my path that I travel.  That cannot stop me from what I am striving to do, which is whatever God has willed for me in this life on earth.  Yes, I am scared out of my mind sometimes and so very unsure when something gets in my way.  What is key is placing it before the Father, the Son, the Spirit, Mary, and all the saints to whom I may implore.

I thought this year was tough, but next year may be just as tough for me.  Formation is not supposed to be easy, it challenges a person and pushes them to fulfill something greater in them.  The feeling of that greatness is in me, I can feel it.  Getting there is so hard and there are many doubts along the way.  Is this the right path?  If so, why all these unneeded difficulties?  I am here to discern through God’s will for me.  Friends are good to make along the way, but sisters are what we really gain.  This is a lesson I have learned a lot this past year.  Friendships that blossom and friendships that fade away.  Sisters though, are there no matter what.  Whether they are the best friends of sisters or the ones that never talk, they are sisters and they are there just the same.  Have I learned more?  Yes, sure I have.  Do I see myself very different from the rest?  Yes, of course so.  This is tough, this life is not easy but it is joyful.  By golly, it makes me smile all the time even amidst the struggles.

So yes, I am excited to be back.  It is not without its pains and fear, frustrations and trials.  Even so, you will find that I am often joyful at this call though it all.  You can’t hesitate at what you know is God’s will for you, even if you don’t think you can handle it.

So why then, in the end of it all, am I smiling all the time like an idiot?  God must have me right where He wants me in life and I am enjoying as much of it as I can!

Mary, help me.  Father, protect me.  Jesus, transform me.  Spirit, move me.

 
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Posted by on June 23, 2011 in Inner Reflection

 

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Faithful All Her Days

Have you ever seen her walk down the street

With a bounce in her step

A smile on her face

She’s following order, following orders from God

 

There is a call in her heart

And she can’t resist the urge

To get up and follow Him

Faithful all her days

 

Her past is full of heart and pain

That she fought through

Now she’s standing here

With a faith made strong

 

There is a call in her heart

And she can’t resist the urge

To get up and follow Him

Faithful all her days

 

Have you seen her now, dancing for joy

Her heart full of love

She knows deep inside

That God wants her here to serve

 

There is a call in her heart

And she can’t resist the urge

To get up and follow Him

Faithful all her days

 
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Posted by on October 10, 2010 in Creative Corner

 

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He’s all She’s Living For

Yesterday evening, two of us went to pray in the little chapel for a few minutes before going ot spiritual reading and the office.  We had previously said the rosary, so we decided a little small chapel time with us would be good.  As I was sitting there, a poem/song came to my head.  The melody is a little unsure, but the words are powerfully there.  So take them as you wish, a poem or song lyrics, but it is the meaning behind them that really counts.  Thank you for reading and I hope you enjoy.  Don’t be afraid to comment!

There is a story

Yet to be told

Of one who changed the world

With her hands in a fold

Kneeling admist the pain

Her heart open wide

All love sent forth

In God she did confide

And she sang of that day

When God would take her away

Then she knelt and showed a smile

Knowing that she’d go the mile

That day He knocks on the door

She’ll know what she’s living for

On day in prayer

Her heart sang a song

She must step out of her box

To where she will belong

Moving past her own life

Heart willing to care

Passion shown through

With God she will be there

And she sang of that day

When God would take her away

Then she knelt and showed a smile

Knowing that she’d go the mile

That day He knocks on the door

She’ll know what she’s living for

Now stepping through the doorway

Her life put in His steady hand

She seeks out that love

And someone to understand

He calls her even closer

She’s not sure if she can

He says “My child I’m here for you

Look where we have been”

Now she sings of the day

That God did take her away

She kneels down with a smile

Ready to go the extra mile

She walked through God’s door

He’s all she’s living for

Dear Lord, please guide me through the hard times and the good times.  Help to keep walking through the doors you have opened for me that I may become even closer to you and the will you have for me.  Thank you for the friends you have put in my life to keep me on the path to you.  You are all I am living for.  Amen.

 
 

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Entering into Communion with Christ Through Mary

Tonight was our medal ceremony, it was amazing!  We sang and it was great.  Here are some poems to express what is in me.

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The butterflies were fluttering everywhere

Pacing were our feet this way and that

Preperations of last minute to be done

Prayers that prayer is to go smooth sailing

Time finally arrived that which was here

A moment of which we have waited for

Before we know it all became a blur of time

Songs were sung with such great gusto

Readings read with passion deep within

Symbol of our devotion blessed indeed

Hang now around our necks proudly

Moment passes by and hugs are passed

Smiles now shine brightly from our faces

And the butterflies fly free once again

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In all those moments past

Move on I have now done

Mary hangs around my neck

Blessed that she always is

Joy runs through my blood

Smile beams across my face

Heart pounds out of my chest

I want to dance for the Lord

Sing out with all my being

Oh what love could beat this

That which God has given

Shared passion with the world

Tears of happiness fall

Feelings of greatness fill me

Stay is will I pray it so

This life to live all the days

With a future that is bright

 
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Posted by on September 8, 2010 in Inner Reflection, Living Salesian

 

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Friends are Angels sent from God

True friends in life never come and go.  They may argue, they may fight, but they are there.  I would never trade those true friends of mine for anything!   In the past couple of days I got to hang out with a couple of cool people.  Seeing my friends and relaxing was the best thing for me, esspecially when home.

Sunday night, I was laying in bed just finishing up on my computer when at 11pm my phone rang.  Shocked that someone called me, let alone at 11pm, I answer it.  It was Fr. Tom!  I was definitely excited to hear from him and get an opportunity to see him.  Monday morning, I got to his sister’s place around nine.  We had mass in the living room and then just sat around the table talking and eating some breakfast.  It was so good.  It also made me think a lot.  The faith in the family, just by sight, was amazing.  There were six kids in the family and all were wonderful.  I was kind of in awe of them.  Of course, I did only see them for a morning!  Regardless, it was good to go there and see Fr. Tom with his family.  I loved my morning.

Last night, Tuesday night, I got to see Nicole for the first time in a year!  Let me tell you, I was really excited to go over to her house and hang out!  We watching “Dirty Dancing: Havana Nights” because she had not seen it and ballroom dancing is amazing, so this is a good dancing movie.  While doing that we played Sequence.  I mean come on, who can not love that game, it is great!  After, we just hung out and talked.  It was so good to just catch up with each other and hear how life is going.  Nicole asked me a lot of about next year going into formation.  I was glad she asked about it because I really wanted to share.  Of course I was smiling while talking about it!  While we continued to talk about it, we made dinner.  I should say, Nicole did dinner but keep it on the record, I offered to help!  It was a good dinner; we had teriyaki chicken and rice in tortillas.  We of course, wanted to bake something, so we then looked through some cookie recipes.  The idea popped in my head to make Nutella cookies.  After finding a good recipe, we headed to the store to pick up some Nutella.  With some added m&ms, the cookies were great!  With the cookies done and the time getting late, we popped in one more movie, a funny one to end the night, “RV.”  Before we ended the night we resolved to meet up one more time before we both head out.  It was simply amazing to hang out!

Friends, true friends, are the most amazing!  Never let them go.  The past two days were wonderful and I want them again!  Peace everyone.  Remember, smile always because it is contagious!

 
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Posted by on July 28, 2010 in Inner Reflection

 

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Just a Glimpse

Here is a video put on youtube from the Salesian Sisters of the East Province that I will God-Willingly be joining.  It is a glimpse into the awesomeness.  The video was posted in December of 2008.  I have met some of these girls, and they are wonderful!

I could be like them all…wow.

 
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Posted by on April 17, 2010 in Living Salesian, Videos

 

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Laugh and Smile

It was beautiful the way she laughed and smiled

With the beams shinning from her war-torn face

The pain that was once all there was to be seen

Has now shrunken back to a much smaller place

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This retreat she took has brought life back to her

Some visits to see the grandparents were grand

They talked and played games and caught up with life

She wishes to take them on her journey hand in hand

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There is a friend she met at church one fun summer

A brief moment had to recap life is with happiness

Happenings of the youth of her parish going on

And the excitement in each life that is the very best

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At a coffee shop more life excitement to be shared

She into formation and her dear friend to be married

Oh the joy those two felt as stories are exchanged

The friendship and bond there will be forever carried

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Off to a concert by Casting Crowns she did surely go

A band that she does love and seen three times before

Yet a message reached her in a very surprising way

She sang and praised and only could wish for more

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Traveling to school after the concert was her next stop

A place of many joys as well as some deep pain too

Finally she had wished to go back to be in special retreat

She decided to ride with the flow to see where she’d go

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Friends were surely surprised by her random arrival

They laughed and they talked and shared many a story

She was so joyful to be in the presence of community

With people who could share her joy and God’s glory

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A talk she did give at praise and worship night to some

Nervous she was as speaking publicly is a huge fear

But when she sat in front of curious and interested faces

She spoke from her heart and God was made very clear

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There is a friend that she admires greatly his uniqueness

To the woods they traveled while in valuable conversation

Swinging over a creek brought needed laughter to her soul

Climbing ten feet of wall gave smiles to aid retreat conversion

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Leaving that place she was sadden in such glorious ways

People touched her in rejuvenating energy that was given

Giving a talk and praising song that changed her deeply

Playing in the bluffs with bonding put her in heaven

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Back to home town then on her way to the east coast

She cannot believe how God worked in her those days

He knew what would put her back on her feet to go

It could only leave her in a position of thanks and praise

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On a retreat that brought life back to her weary face

From the Spirit was given to her strength to go the miles

God looked down on her through friends supporting

They got to see the beautiful she happily laughs and smiles

 
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Posted by on April 16, 2010 in Creative Corner, Inner Reflection

 

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Picture Story

When my family was here at the point to visit me…

…Sister Colleen came to visit my family.  It was quite nerve-wrecking for some odd reason.  I am not exactly why it was this way, but it was.  It made me want to get out my nervous energy…

…of course there is no archery range that I know of around.  I do have to say, seeing Sister Colleen after so long was really good and it made me smile.  She caught me in the act of smiling while talking about religious life before going to meet the family.  I think I really could be a Salesian.  This might be close to the smile…

…but it does not equal it I am sure.  Once we showed up for the meeting of my family and what seems to be the rest of my life, everything seemed to go real well.  There was an odd feeling of wanting to be distracted.  All in all, the meeting went well.  Before this meeting, I forget to say, I turned in most my application.  Let me tell you…

…it makes you want to do crazy things when do turn in most the application for the rest of your life.  I am so excited and there is such an odd peace about doing this.  Of course at the same time, there is some chaos and nervousness with the whole thing.  I have many questions lurking…

…okay, not as slowly lurking as a turtle.  Really, there are fast paced and many the questions in my mind.  I have to learn to breath and reflect upon my life, realizing that questions are okay if they don’t consume me.  It is nice sometimes to curl up in the corner…

…and just smile and pray and be happy with the good things in life.  On the flip side, I have realized that is is good for me to have times of being goofy and full of energy.  If I don’t do that, who knows what will happen…

…and it could be very strange.  Don’t judge!  In the end of it all, balance is key to making sure I don’t drive myself up a wall, or anyone else for that matter.  Things have been rough in parts of my life, and I am ready to move and let it all go.  Of course it is going to me a climb…

…but it is going to be worth it in the end.  I can not wait until all my application gets in and I get the letter in return for acceptance (God-willing)!  Salesian Sisters of Saint John Bosco, here I come!  Daughters of Mary Help of Christians, you better watch out!  The FMA has never seen one like me! 🙂 Right…now I should go be weird somewhere else and clean, my room and my soul (constant cleaning I tell ya)!  Here goes the beginning of the rest of my life…

…and I am going to conquer it!  Just, you know, pray for me in that process!  I will be praying for all you too.  Peace!

 
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Posted by on April 6, 2010 in Inner Reflection, Photos

 

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Worn Out And Exhausted

This is what I feel like today

A tired fills my entire body

Worn out and exhausted

Busy work wears me down

Doing nothing tires me out

Thinking about the future

Puts me in a disarray

Peace I do hold somewhere

So laying down spread out

The place I wish to be

So that the tired is awake

The lazy is full of energy

The disarray turns into peace

Complete peace full of smiles

Exhausted I am at the time

I wish to do just at this

What I did in that photo

I cannot even start to tell you the many things can contribute to the exhausted feeling that I have in me.  The crappy weather today, the boredom, the busy work, the focus on many thoughts about religious life, worry of my family coming to visit, and much more in me waiting to burst.  Basically, if I could do what I was doing there, I totally would.  Relax, calm down, let the mind settle, and soak up the sun so that I may be refreshed and do what need to be done in a smiling, peaceful, clear minded way.  Pray, pray fully involved in the prayer.  That would be great to achieve that, I cannot wait.

 
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Posted by on March 26, 2010 in Creative Corner, Inner Reflection, Photos

 

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