These past days have been on the tougher end but don’t get me wrong, still absolutely wonderful. I simply love the sisters! Anyways, it has been hard. There is a lot of inner battles and inner work to be done on myself. This is of course, a bit normal for one going through a formation process as we are doing. One of the sisters got me in my moment of complete meltdown (happens every now and then, I suggest not holding things in) since we are cooking together on Mondays this month. I have talked with her a little here and there, vaguely.
Tonight, when I got in the chapel for evening prayer, I found something on my chair. I looked around and noticed no one else had it. Certain parts of it were highlighted. For the sake of sharing it here, I will put what was highlighted in italics.
GUIDANCE – Author Unknown
When I meditated on the word GUIDANCE, I kept seeing “dance” at the end of the word. I remember reading the doing God’s will is a lot like dancing. When two people try to lead, nothing feels right. The movement doesn’t flow with the music, and everything is quite uncomfortable and jerky.
When one person realizes and lets the other lead, both bodies begin to flow with the music. One gives gentle cues, perhaps with a nudge to the back or by pressing lightly in one direction or another. It’s as if two become one body, moving beautifully. The dance takes surrender, willingness, and attentiveness from one person and gentle guidance and skill from the other.
My eyes drew back to the word GUIDANCE. When I saw “G,” I thought of God, followed by “u” and “i.” “God,” “u” and “i” “dance.” God, you and I dance! This statement is what guidance means to me.
As I lowered my head, I became willing to trust that I would get guidance about my life. Once again, I became willing to let God lead.
My prayer for you today is that God’s blessings and mercies be upon you and your family this day and everyday. May you abide in Him as He abides in you. Dance together with God, trusting Him to lead and to guide you guide you through each season of your life.
I hope you dance!!
After much debate throughout dinner, I went to ask the sister I mentioned prior if she saw who placed a paper on my chair. She gave me this look and said it was her. It was perfect! She has been cleaning out her office and such, and while doing so stumbled upon it. I guess when she looked at it, she thought of me. She highlighted it and left in on my chair to find at prayer.
That little thing was something I really needed to hear I think. It has given me something to reflect on. As many people know, I love poetry, music, and dance. All of that coupled with being in the great outdoors of God’s creation. I am simply myself that way. I am not sure she knows completely the timing of it, though I do know she has a really good idea of it. This sister has really been a blessing to me and one of the two I trust the most. I think I may have thanked her a few times for this one!