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Live the Dream

Here is a video that I think all of you should see!  It puts such hope and yearning in one’s soul, among other things as well!

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Posted by on January 25, 2012 in Inspirational Music, Living Salesian, Videos

 

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Mmm…Interesting

For some reason lately, the posts have been fewer and farther in-between.  I think I may have come up with some ideas or theories on why that may be so.  It is not that I don’t have much going on that is not deep and reflective nor is it that I don’t wish to share.  The internal workings of myself have been on overdrive.  I think more deeply and profoundly.  I feel even great than I have before.  I deal with much more than I may seem to.  The reflective bit of me is here just much as it ever was and just as willing to share as it ever has been.  What is the way I work is that I need to be comfortable in what I share and ready to put it into words that reach out, share, yet keep in private what must be kept as so.  Religious life pushes one in a way they have never really been pushed.  I can make al the comparisons in the world and such, but nothing with be like this, or even like what my past experiences have been, though they do play off of each other.

 
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Posted by on September 16, 2011 in Inner Reflection

 

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Small Current Thoughts

Indeed, it has been a long time since I have posted in comparison to what I have been doing.  My one creative writing a day has stopped happening.  Even so, I am still writing and have another one I will post in the very near future.  Life has been interesting and causing me to look deeper into myself than one would ever want to do.  Some of my writings capture the essence of what is in me, but never to its full effect.  At times I am hesitant to post, for it may only give a small glimpse of me in that moment.  I fear that the reader will misconstrue that little bit of me to be the whole of me.  As many of you who do follow this blog most likely have caught within my writings, there is something that hurts that lives in me.  Do not be alarmed, for with that is something of greatest possession over me.  That is, the love God has for me and the peace He has given me with the path having led to formation for religious life.  No, I don’t know what will happen next.  God could keep me here or He could send me on another path. 

These are just a few of the things I want to share with my readers.  I am forever grateful that people read my blog and can be touched in a unique way here.  Do not be afraid to comment, even if only to put a smiley face.  It is good to know I am connected with people from all over.  Happy blogging, God Bless, and may peace be in your lives.

 
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Posted by on February 6, 2011 in Inner Reflection

 

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Receive the Power

I was just thinking of my World Youth Day experience in 2008 in Australia then decided to look up the song on YouTubethat was our theme.  It was called “Recieve the Power.”

VERSE 1
Every nation, every tribe,
come together to worship You.
In Your presence we delight:
we will follow
to the ends of the earth.

CHORUS
Alleluia, Alleluia!
Receive the power, from the Holy Spirit!
Alleluia, Alleluia!
Receive the power to be a light unto the world.

VERSE 2
As Your Spirit calls to rise
we will answer and do Your will.
We’ll forever testify
of Your mercy and unfailing love.

REPEAT CHORUS

BRIDGE
Lamb of God, we worship you.
Holy one, we worship you.
Bread of Life, we worship you.
Emmanuel, we worship you.
Lamb of God, we worship you.
Holy one, we worship you.
Bread of life, we worship you.
Emmanuel, we will sing forever:

REPEAT CHORUS

Isn’t this song so beautiful?  I loved hearing it so much as we walked all over the place in Syndey.  Listening to it again as I sit her thinking of what to write about brings back so many memories.  If I remember correctly, it was the first time anyone I knew had appraoched me about the religious life.  Sure, I may have been open to all vocations before that, but never really had someone asked me about it. 

In general this song brings it all back to the core of things.  Everyone coming together to worship the Lord and follow Him for as long as we live.  When we hear the call from God because Jesus died for us, through the Holy Spirit…we must rise and do the will that we are called to do. 

So pertaining that to religious life, it is possible and very much there.  Of course this song would take on different meaning for different people.  For me it is a reminder of the constant prayer, praise, worship, and sacrifice that must be made in the name of the Lord.  That does come in some reason, that is.  No one has to understand me and believe me.  That would be a great help if I were allowed to share my side, which I am not, but that is another story.  Anyways, it just resonates with me and where I am now as a reminder of what life is all about.

 
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Posted by on September 27, 2010 in Inner Reflection, Inspirational Music

 

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The Morning before the Journey Continues

It is the morning, approximately 8:20, and I am staring at the floor of stuff that I need to pack to leave.  So many things swarm my mind and my feelings are all over the place so much that I am not even sure if I am thinking or feeling anything at all.  Packing puts me in a numb and sends me over the edge with emotion and frustration that things just don’t pack themselves.  No, this is not attributed to the fact that I wait until the day before, or night, to get things in the bags that they are to travel in.  It is more to the fact that me and packing is not exactly a good combination once we moved past the clothes and into the ordeals of sweatshirts into all the other little things.  Starting earlier might help, you say?  Well, that only adds to the craziness by reason of it sits there longer and I worry more about what I packed, how I packed it, and the list goes on.  So, here I sit this morning staring at what needs to be done, what needs to go, and what needs to stay.  I must make it work.

9:30 it now is.  I have shower, found my ring under the couch, and there are still things to pack.  My webcam has made a run for its life, so I may have to go without it.  The deodorant has also gone missing and the new one it packed away in the deep confines of my suitcase to be checked.  As the time draws near for me to leave, I fear so many things to go wrong, to not have done right, to have forgotten.  All these I must wipe away and continue forth in what I believe God wants me to do.

The hour has rolled around, it is 10am and I believe everything is packed that can be.  Photos will have to wait as they weigh more than I want to carry in my backpack.  Those will have to come back after the Christmas holidays.  As I lifted my suitcase, a fear settled that it may be over the 50 lbs that it must be under in order to not pay more than need be.  That scares me as what can I take from there?  It is all clothes any very little else.  Now I must enlist my dad to lift the bag and get his opinion.

10:15 and it has been decided to go over to my grandparents to do the grand weighing of the bags.  We shall see what will go and what will stay.  This is very crazy, what I have to bring, what I want to bring, and what I can bring.  Little do I know as to what I actually want to do with some stuff.  I fear that there will be too much that I don’t need.  I fear that there is not enough.

10:30 and my family is driving me nuts. 

Okay, the time is now 10:50.  I have just gotten off the phone with Jocelyn and it was good to hear her voice.  I am guessing that now is the time that I should finish this post and sign off form this computer.  Do not fear, I will be back.  We get to stay connected online; there are community computers to use so that will be good.  I have hit a semi loss for words moment and do not know what to say.  Now shall be the time to go eat something and make sure I am set to go.  Peace everyone.  Please come visit my site often as I go through this journey!

 

 
 

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Affirming the Discerning

It has been a while since I have posted, as things have been staying quite busy.  Right now I have just one week left at the Marianist Family Retreat Center in Cape May Point, NJ (look it up!).  It is sad that my time is nearly to an end.  My last retreat is coming up and it may be a little emotional being I am hitting the road the day after it ends back to Minnesota.  God has done, is doing, and will do great things.

There are themed days on the week: welcoming, communication, forgiveness, affirmation, commitment, and commissioning.  On Commitment day, something really hit me.  During a part of the service, the families share their commitments to each other and to the world in front of all of us on the retreat.  The parents go first and share their commitments to each other, renewing what they had at marriage.  They they invite the kids up and continue.  While the couples were sharing, each time a couple came up, I thought it so beautiful their love for each other.  How wonderful to have that!  I was thinking how that is something I really want in my life and how wonderful it would be to have it like them.  Then, I also had this feeling of it is not for me as much as I could ever want it.  It was truly an affirmation that taking the step to go into formation with the Salesians is the right thing to do even if it does not work out that way. 

There is so much on my heart and in my mind right now, but I don’t want to overload with a long post, nor do I really have the words to express.  These next days, maybe weeks, and even possibly months, are going to be emotional ones and very energy draining.  I just pray for strength and wisdom through it all.  Peace.

 

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Creative Writings Sparked by Salesian Possibilities in my Life!

I have decided repost some of my poems that show the passion and love that I had in me when I first learned of the Salesians.  The way I felt, the way I acted, the things that I wrote…all show so much as to what this is in my life.  It is good to revisit these works of art as a refreshment to my heart and soul what God has given me.  For each poem or lyric, I will give you the explanation of it before showing you it.  Also, there is a link to the original blog post for each one, so feel free to check it out and comment there.  There are more in-depth explanations in the original posts.  Remember, these are all my own personal works of art and I cherish them very much.

This is the first of two writings that came from my hands a night or two (do not recall exactly) after my visit with the Salesian Sisters/FMA over Thanksgiving.  It is a psalm entitled “You Call For Me.” (see post here)

You Call For Me

Lord, you call for me. Help me to listen and to follow You.

Lord, whatever You want.
However You want.
Whenever You want.
Wherever You want.
However much You want.

Lord, you call for me. Help me to listen and to follow You.

My heart is racing
My soul leaps for joy
Your love is in me
In Your arms I belong

Lord, you call for me. Help me to listen and to follow You.

To be Your hands and feet
A beacon of light for the world
To walk hand in hand with You
Filled with such passion and love

Lord, you call for me. Help me to listen and to follow You.

Never has a joy like this entered me
Like a streaming rush of water
A chance to fill an empty hole
To be Your servant, Your bride

Lord, you call for me. Help me to listen and to follow You.

Lord, whatever You want.
However You want.
Whenever You want.
Wherever You want.
However much You want.

Lord, you call for me. Help me to listen and to follow You. 

This is the second of two writings that came from my hands a night or two (do not recall exactly) after my visit with the Salesian Sisters/FMA over Thanksgiving.  It is a poem entitled “I Am Ready For You.” (see post here)

I Am Ready For You

Jeremiah 29:13 “When you search for me, you will find me; if you seek me with all your heart.”

Oh Lord I did not see
I was not searching as I should
Searching You with all my heart
Now I see that You were there
And in lack of giving all my heart
Blind I did stay, lost in the world
Here, though, a change occurred
I give You all my heart now
Take it and do with it as You please
I earnestly search for You
Actively waiting for Your call in my life
Take me where You will, protect me
You say You are waiting for me
I say I am ready for You, here I am

Here you will find a poem that was rattled out of me during my second visit to the sisters.  I now leave you to read a poem entitled “Vocation.” (see post here)

Vocation

It is not very quiet in her heart so full
There is this tug, this bit of a pull
Something calling to do a little more
Drawing her to see what is in store
Fear trembles from deep within
She has no idea where to begin
There was a visit to come and see
Leaving her now on bended knee
With all of this she is left to wander
Her friends give her much to ponder
In all the moments of her past
Maybe this is what will forever last

This poem I wrote a couple of days before I started my blog.   It was what gave the final push to have me start blogging.  Here is a poem entitled “Prayer: See Inward, See Outward.” (see post here)

Prayer: See Inward, See Outward

There is this deep longing
Something that burns deep within
I want to run out dancing
But where do I really begin
I close my eyes and start to see
This image of complete joy
A woman of God who is free
Her faith she wants to employ
Songs in the heart filled with love
A voice with much to speak
Sharing what came from above
God’s will is what she does seek
My eyes open again with hope
At what could be my mission
With fear I must certainly cope
With God I must share vision
The longing inside I do hold
Burns to be released for you
Dancing and singing so bold
Beginning to live I must do
With God in my beating heart
Showing all those who care
Eyes wide open I am a part
Beauty in faith is my prayer

 The day before I started this blog, this was the final, final push to get me to start.  This song to be is entitled “Lord, I Want To Be With You.” (see post here)

Lord, I Want To Be With You

Today I saw you walking in the street
Today you glanced in my direction
Today my hand was put into yours
Today words of wisdom were spoken

I am falling on my knees
Begging you Lord, please
Guide me in all that I do
Lord, I want to be with you

How did I not see you there before
Trying to guide me on your path
How could I have been so blind
You finally have reached into me

I am falling on my knees
Begging you Lord, please
Guide me in all that I do
Lord, I want to be with you

Take my hand and lead me on
Never let me stray from your side
Remind that I’m worth your time
Send me out worshiping and praising

I am falling on my knees
Begging you Lord, please
Guide me in all that I do
Lord, I want to be with you

With you, oh-oh-oh Lord, with you
Give me the strength and courage
It is only you I long to follow
So leave me here in prayer

I am falling on my knees
Begging you Lord, please
Guide me in all that I do
Lord, I want to be with you

Lord, I want to be with you
So take me into your will

 So there you have it, the beginning of my creative writings relating to religious life and my life landing in the Salesian spirituality.  There are others I have written in relation to this as well as the many that are yet to come, but these ones are at the beginning, the core of a spark that hit me at NCYC the weekend before thanksgiving. (Reminder: you can read more back story about each piece I wrote by click the link posted for each one!)  I can give thanks to God for all He has done for me especially now as I prepare for entering August 24th!  Isn’t it wonderful, I could become an FMA, a Daughter of Mary Help of Christians!

 

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