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All I Want to Do

Upon leaving the formation program with the sisters, most of my life had this feeling of falling apart.  Deep down I still have that draw to only live my life for God.  I was given a list of things I need to do while away from the sisters, for I am able to return one day when I reach a certain goals put out for me.  When having to live my life doing things my heart is not in, it becomes difficult to stay standing and do what I must do.  In the end of the day I just need to remember and hold close to the fact that all I want to do is live my life for God.  What will I do to make sure that it keeps happening, that I don’t forget what is most important and that I hold on to what God wants of me?

 
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Posted by on August 27, 2012 in Inner Reflection, Inspirational Music

 

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The Perfect Quote

It has been quite a while since I have posted here on my blog and there is so many things that I could share with all of you.  In brief, this is what is new.  I am not with the sisters but plan on going back if God really wants me there; there are many things I need to work on and bars I need to reach.  I have gone to Italy for three weeks to stay with my aunt.  Actually, only two really big things.  It is hard for me to be living with my parents as I am ready to be out and doing God’s will for me, but it is the step I need to take to move on.  Also known as, I am looking for a job.  In the middle of all of this, there is a lot of reflection and prayer trying to figure out where my life is going in this moment.

Okay, so I was looking around for a quote to post as my status and I came across this one. It actually is so very perfect for this blog, the title of it, and in all essence of it…me.  Here it is.

“The most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat, known suffering, known struggle, known loss, and have found their way out of the depths. These persons have an appreciation, a sensitivity, and an understanding of life that fills them with compassion, gentleness, and a deep loving concern. Beautiful people do not just happen.”
— Elisabeth Kübler-Ross

Amazing, huh?  I thought so.  Sometimes it is very hard ot believe, but it is true if I step back and look at everything in my life.  I am trying to find myself out of the depths in the midst of keeping myself from falling further.  It is perfect and what I need to remind myself of the good things to come.

With that, be asured that there will be more postings and reflections stemming from since I have been home (May 16th) and elsewise.  God bless you all.  I am happy to be back in this realm. 🙂

 
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Posted by on August 9, 2012 in Inner Reflection

 

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God’s Word

Reflection on God’s Word is a HUGE part of living in a Salesian convent, as I have learned in my time there.  It is something I really miss, sharing what the Holy Spirit inspires in me and hearing what comes from the reflections of others.  A dear friends of mine who has also tasted Salesian life has come up with a brilliant plan.  She and I are now in charge of a new blog together.  You can click here to check it out.

We post the Sunday readings, and perhaps more things once we get moving on it, and then you the reader comes and shares in reflection with us.  Community in this aspect is so nurturing to one’s faith life.  Please come and check us out!  We would love to have you.

 
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Posted by on June 8, 2012 in Inner Reflection, Living Salesian

 

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Jesus and Religion

 In case you have not heard, there was a particular video that made its surface not long ago and got millions of hits in just one day.  It is talking about how Jesus is great, but religion is not.  The creator of the video calls it “Why I Hate Religion, but Love Jesus || Spoken Word.”  There has been much discussion and many conversations on this.  Some of our Salesian Novices created a video in response to this, almost immediately after they heard and saw.  They called it, “Why I Love Religion, and Love Jesus || Spoken Word (Response Video).”  I would strongly recommend that you watch the response video.  It is extremely well done and addresses the topics of the original one that was put out.  If you have not seen what all the fuss is about, watch the first one as well to gain some background.  I advocate what the second one is about, the one done by the Salesians, just so everyone knows.  Let me know what you think.

Why I Hate Religion, but Love Jesus || Spoken Word

Why I Love Religion, and Love Jesus || Spoken Word (Response Video)

 
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Posted by on January 19, 2012 in Being Catholic, Videos

 

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Self-Control

Today is the Commemoration of the Feast of Mary Mazzarello.  On this day, as with others of our Salesian Saints no other days, we put out a relic of that saint.  As well, there are cards with virtues, sayings, and such that relate to the saint.  This is what was on my card that I went to get.

Self Control

If we struggle against our defects with good will, they will help us advance on the way to perfection, as long as we are humble.

Virgin most Prudent, assist us this day.

 
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Posted by on January 13, 2012 in Living Salesian

 

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Hope

As time has gone on, I have taken more time with my writings before posting them.  A lot of myself goes into everything I write, at least in terms of poems and reflections and such.  With that being as it is, I have told myself I need to sit with each things I write for a while and pray with it, especially so before I post it for all to see.  That being said, I am now sharing a poem I wrote while meditating before going to the midnight Christmas mass (at 11pm…perhaps the closest I have gotten, but hey, consecration was at midnight).  It is entitled “Hope” and as I said, it is written by yours truly.  I find it more as a prayer than a reflection, or perhaps it is both, and maybe even more.  Thank you for your honest reading and sharing in my journey. 

HOPE

My hope is in you my God

Whose guiding strong hand

Whose living walking presence

Whose flowing steady breath

Leads me where I must go

My hope is in you my God

For you have stayed with me

You have reached me many times

In many ways, all three forms

My God you hold me close

Your embrace is tight, warm

It catches me when I fall

My tears are precious to you

The movement I make is yours

My hope is in you my God

Where else is there to turn

God, you do great things for me

My thanks goes on forever

I must always reach for you

My hope is in you my God

 
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Posted by on January 12, 2012 in Creative Corner, Inner Reflection

 

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Learning from Mother Mazzarello

When asked what I wanted to learn from Mary Mazzarello, I drew a blank stare in my mind.  We studied in pretty good detail, through reading the Cronistoria and Maccono, the life of Mother Mazzarello.  I had various reflections on what her life was like and how it could relate to my own journey to becoming, God-willing, a Salesian Sister.  To say now, though, what I want to learn from her appears very difficult.  This is what I have finally come up with.

I want to better know her life, her way of living, everything about here and relate it to my life.  Just to know her as the human person that she was here on earth over the saint that we praise her for today.  While they are one in the same, looking at her qualities that make her a saint causes one to forget about all the qualities that make her the whole person she was.  I want to learn the discernment and patience that she had with others.  In the end, I want to learn everything that I can from her.

There is no one particular thing that I wish to gain from this beautiful soul, but to soak up her life and who she was so that I may learn how to better be myself in this amazing institute.

 
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Posted by on September 22, 2011 in Inner Reflection, Living Salesian

 

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Mmm…Interesting

For some reason lately, the posts have been fewer and farther in-between.  I think I may have come up with some ideas or theories on why that may be so.  It is not that I don’t have much going on that is not deep and reflective nor is it that I don’t wish to share.  The internal workings of myself have been on overdrive.  I think more deeply and profoundly.  I feel even great than I have before.  I deal with much more than I may seem to.  The reflective bit of me is here just much as it ever was and just as willing to share as it ever has been.  What is the way I work is that I need to be comfortable in what I share and ready to put it into words that reach out, share, yet keep in private what must be kept as so.  Religious life pushes one in a way they have never really been pushed.  I can make al the comparisons in the world and such, but nothing with be like this, or even like what my past experiences have been, though they do play off of each other.

 
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Posted by on September 16, 2011 in Inner Reflection

 

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Not Sleepy Words

Last night I was unable to fall asleep.  There was nothing that could be done to get me to fall into a slumber.  Yesterday was an interesting day that I will not forget for a long time.  That will be a story those certain of  you know you will hear from me at some point.  God was being the Father He is to me and Jesus the brother/friend He is, let’s leave it at that.  Anyways, in the lack of sleep no matter what I tried to do, this is what came of it, typed out on my iPod. 

Have you ever felt something so deeply within your entire being?  Where words cannot even come close to describing what is running throughout you?  So it is with me.  So many times my heart feels like it will explode for lack of an outlet.  The simplest thing happens, good or bad, and the whole movement within shifts, looking for a form of expression.  Alas, you are not understood for what is felt; it is more than anyone else can comprehend.  Has that ever occurred in your life?  What did you do?  It is so often this appears in my life and all I can do is but simply contain it within myself, bottling everything till the moment it flies out in tears, of both joy and sorrow.  How can no one feel as I do?  Is there anyone out there who thinks it is possible that someone my age may have more wisdom than is usually given credit to?  In my heart there is so much to share, but no one to listen or who will take me seriously.  Is it the struggles of my life that hold me back?  Maybe the wisdom I feel have is not really there.  What does it really matter in the end anyways, what other people say or think?  As long as I am true to myself, right?  I feel deeply so many things all over the scale, from the worst of things to the most marvelous things.  Then what is left is what to do with all those feelings in me before they become a chaos and that shoots me backwards to things I have left behind me that try to creep on.  How can I express myself in a way that gives me comfort and joy, even with the sorrow too, so that I may be me?

 
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Posted by on August 29, 2011 in Inner Reflection

 

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Lost Without You

Last night I wrote a song, even with the music too, and I have been refining it through prayerfully playing it over and over and over and over again.  As I was practicing a song that I have been working, my own came to my mind and I started to write it down and work out the tune, chords, and strum.  I am not someone who can just sit down and write a song.  It has been just less than a year that I have been playing guitar, but I have been writing forever. 

This particular song that I wrote has become my prayer now in this past day or so.  I was hesitant at first about sharing it for fear you may get your own melody stuck in your head.  This thing is, I believe it to be a powerful prayer and song that I desire to share with everyone.  One day when I can confidently sing it in tune, I will record it and put it on here for all of you to hear.  Until that day, these are the lyrics that I have.

Lost Without You

(intro)

I pray each night and day

That you will guide my way

Cause I’m so lost without you Jesus

I’m searching for your love

From heaven up above

Cause I’m so lost without you Jesus

(direct to refrain)

Jesus, Jesus

I am lost without you

Jesus, Jesus

Please never leave my side

Jesus

(interlude)

Each day I turn to you

I don’t know what else to do

Cause I’m so lost without you Jesus

I give you my joy and fear

For you are always near

Cause I’m so lost without you Jesus

(direct to refrain)

Jesus, Jesus

I am lost without you

Jesus, Jesus

Please never leave my side

Jesus

(interlude)

Jesus, Jesus

With you I’m never lost

Jesus, Jesus

I’ll never leave your side

Jesus, sweet Jesus

I need you here with me

(resounding end chord)

Stay tuned for when that recording may come.  Pray for my voice and my playing that I maybe confident to record this song!

 
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Posted by on June 25, 2011 in Creative Corner, Inner Reflection

 

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