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Find You On My Knees

Find You On My Knees by Kari Jobe

Troubles chasing me again,
Breaking down my best defence,
I’m looking, God, I’m looking for you
Weary just won’t let me rest and fear is filling up my head.
I’m longing, God I’m longing for you

But I will find you in the place I’m in, find you when I’m at my end,
Find you when there’s nothing left of me to offer you except for brokenness.
You lift me up, you’ll never leave me thirsty,
When I am weak, when I am lost and searching
I’ll find you on my knees.

So what if sorrow shakes my faith,
What if heartache still remains,
I’ll trust you, my god I’ll trust you.
‘Cause You are faithful and

I will find you in the place I’m in, find you when I’m at my end,
Find you when there’s nothing left of me to offer you except for brokenness.
You lift me up, you’ll never leave me thirsty,
When I am weak, when I am lost and searching
I’ll find you on my knees, my knees.

When my hope is gone, when the fear is strong
When the pain is real, when it’s hard to heal
When my faith is shaken and my heart is broken and my joy is stolen, God I know that

You lift me up, you’ll never leave me thirsty,

Find you in the place I’m in, find you when I’m at my end,
Find you when there’s nothing left of me to offer you except for brokenness.
You lift me up, you’ll never leave me thirsty,
When I am weak, when I am lost and searching
I’ll find you on my knees.

I find that this song is yet another one that really strikes me.  It is a good description of me where I am at, and as well something I wish I had more of.  I wish I could describe beyond that, but even the words I woud find would not suit what is inside of me.  My hope is jsut that I find myself on my knees begging for aide from Heaven above, open to knowing what it is when it comes.

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Posted by on September 29, 2012 in Inner Reflection, Inspirational Music

 

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Connected

A little while ago, we took a trip to the zoo.  When we were looking at the monkeys, I caught a glance of a quote on the wall.  I was so in awe of it that I had to jot it down, that is, jot in the sense of a modern person in the sense of typing it into my iPod.  Regardless, here is it in all its beauty.

“When one tugs on a single things in nature, he finds it connected to the rest of the world.” John Muir

WOW! Others may not see this as I do, but it makes no difference to me.  There is something beautiful in this line that draws me to dig deeper into its meaning.  Just the idea of a great connectedness makes my shiver.  I see this not only in the complexity of nature that I adore being immersed in so much, but in the faith that drives me through those hard things I  have been through and still am going through now.

Sometimes I just want to throw away and run away from the faith that has kept me all together.  Sometimes what is happening within me seems stronger than any faith could ever handle.  The thing is, all I need is one little something of faith.  Even the tiniest glimmer to hold on to is enough.  It is like the quote says.  All I need to do is tug on even the smallest bit of faith and it will connect me to so much love and hope and faith that will keep me moving.  If only it was as easy as it sounds.  The best thing is, all need is that little bit, the rest will come…even if it takes what seems like forever to get there.

 
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Posted by on September 12, 2012 in Inner Reflection

 

God is Wiser, God is Stronger

Yesterday I posted a song that appeared in my Facebook ads and really struck me.  It was not too long after that roaming around on Facebook through statuses and photos that I found something else that struck me just as much as that video.  What made it more interesting is who I found it from, but that I shall keep to my own.  Let’s just say it made me smile.  Anyways, I came across this and just all of a sudden stopped.  I could not stop reading it over and over.

“For the foolishness of God is wiser than human wisdom, and the weakness of God is stronger than human strength.”  1 Corinthians 1:25

Something just really strikes me, hits me inside, about that phrase.  We can be as wise as ever and are strong as ever, but even then does God’s foolishness and weakness amount to more than our wisdom and strength.  It sure puts a spin on things, doesn’t it?  It doesn’t matter how on top of our game we are and how well off we are, God still is above us in His lowest point (not that God has many of those I would imagine).

So why does this strike me?  I can think I have things handled and sometimes even feel like I know what is best.  At times, I am doing really well and maybe I lose track of who is keeping me there.  This is a reminder of how important God should be in my life.  Sure, it reminds me of even more than that, but simply put…I can never outdo God or live without Him.  Why then, do I constantly try to do things without Him or think that doing what He would want me to do is not the best option?  Why do I try to run the show?  I have been learning the hard way that it only causes more pain and trouble than I may already have in my life.  Sometimes that is not enough to push me either, so then you bring in the friends who reinforce the point.

This bible passage is something I need to keep meditating on to put me back in check with what my life should really be about.  How about you?

 
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Posted by on September 7, 2012 in Inner Reflection

 

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A Place In My Heart

As one may notice, I don;t blog as often as I used to.  Perhaps I am not as inspired, or the enthusiasm for finding something to write about is missing.  It is not that I have nothing to write about, for I have a world of things I could share.  So it can still be wondered why not write more?  Most of what floods my mind, my heart, my soul, and my entire being is too personal to share with the open world.  One day perhaps.  That being said, I do have a little something for you to munch on.

I have been wishing that a song would cross my path that would give cause for some reflection, and something to share here.  The problem is, I really have only been listening to music in the car nice and loud to drown out the rest of the world inside of me.  At home, I get un-excited to listen to my iPod.  Maybe it could be the fact that there are songs there that can snap me back to reality and all the good things there for me if I put my trust in the right place.  Regardless, I was looking at the annoying ads on the right hand column of the Facebook screen and say a YouTube video and clicked on it.  This is the song that started to play.

Wow, right?  It is called “A Place in my Heart” and it is by Irvin Evans.  To me, a not-so well-known name in the Christian music world, yet appears on my ads at one of the many times that I need it the most when usually nothing comes up anywhere (that I have seen because you know, God has a million blessings everywhere and we miss them).  Strange, don’t you think?

At first, it was purely the music itself, aside from all the words, that drew me in.  This would play as a beautiful instrumental music.  Then, as I listened to the words, it feels like the hidden prayer in my heart.  As I have learned, and still see to be learning, I can’t just pray for things and hope they happen and that I will instantly heal.  I need to give something and make room in my heart for what I am being given.  This song has brought me to shed tears that I avoid letting go on a normal basis.

I want to pray this type of prayer fervently, but God, I need Your help to even talk to you.  Even to talk to Mary, Mother of all, I find myself struggling.  Let this song you have given me sink it and open my heart more and more.  I can’t do this alone.  Please fill all the places of my heart.  Amen.

 
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Posted by on September 6, 2012 in Inner Reflection, Inspirational Music

 

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