Today I went to mass in the evening rather than in the morning. Okay, you are thinking, what is so important about that. It is just how wonderful my evening felt in that short time away from the retreat center. This weekend has been a very good weekend and while there were a few tears trickling down my face at mass tonight, there has been some joy as well.
The weekend started with an unexpected meeting. Villanova, the outside group that came in to use the center, was led by four interns. One of them graduated from Saint Mary’s two year before me, from the same major! To see someone from what was home for four years gave me a lift in spirits. I have decided again that God is amazing in bringing people to be. Granted we did not know each other well and never hung out, we were in the same department with similar friends and both involved in campus ministry. Lately loneliness has settled in being so far away, but being given the chance to see a familiar face has reminded me about how oddly connected we are. The group was amazing and so grateful, that too is a reminder of how much some people still appreciate things. God is so good.
Going to mass without anyone I knew gave me the chance to not be so self-conscious of what I am doing. While that should not be important, it is amazing how different we can act depending on who we are with even if we are not trying to be so aware. There was something that just calmed me and slowed me down when I first knelt to pray. Early to mass, there were not many people there when I arrived. I had a very hard time focusing on what was going on at mass, although aware I was still; my mind traveled rather to letting what God asks of me to settle in me so that I can really feel His love in what I am about to do. It was interesting. God is so Good.
Walking from mass to my car, I took a glance upwards to see an amazing sight. The stars were made visible and the breeze was cool as well as refreshing. Closing my eyes, I was for a brief moment able to put myself back in Winona, MN in the bluffs…until a car drove by. That brief moment stuck in my heart. Oh how I love being outside and feeling the cool breeze, looking into the sky with so much hope and desire to do so much more in this life. God is so Good.
When I got into my car and the radio kicked up, a high energy praise and worship song was on. No, I can not recall which one, but I turned up my radio and blasted it. To jam out singing praise, another one of my favorite things I could do! It made my smile even more. God is so Good.
RB TEC 228 is this weekend. The TEC program has done so much for me, and I am sure it will continue to reach people in amazing ways. This weekend I am goign through the weekend as best as I can. The tears that trickled slightly while at mass were in longing to be there with my TEC friends. As well, a dear little sister friend of mine is making the weekend. Their mass happened around the time I was at mass. To be in solidarity with them is beautiful. God is so Good.
God seems to want me to join the Salesians, it is all I can think about. I smile like crazy when I think of it and especially when I talk about it. He is has given this gift to me and I shall open it and see if it fits. If by chance it doesn’t, I know God will guide me from there. As of now though, it fits well and I plan on keeping it! God is so Good.
Fact: “F.M.A.” Our official initials represent our official title in Latin: FILIAE MARIAE AUXILIATRICE. This translates to, DAUGHTERS OF MARY HELP OF CHRISTIANS, the formal name of the Salesian Sisters.