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What Keeps the Lepers Going…and YOU!

The reflection on today’s Gospel is one that I was struck by.  Thus, I have decided that I am going to re-type it up here for all of you to see.  The Gospel passage is from Luke 17:11-19.  First below is the Gospel to refresh your memory.

As Jesus continued his journey to Jerusalem,
he traveled through Samaria and Galilee.
As he was entering a village, ten lepers met him.
They stood at a distance from him and raised their voice, saying,
“Jesus, Master! Have pity on us!”
And when he saw them, he said,
“Go show yourselves to the priests.”
As they were going they were cleansed.
And one of them, realizing he had been healed,
returned, glorifying God in a loud voice;
and he fell at the feet of Jesus and thanked him.
He was a Samaritan.
Jesus said in reply,
“Ten were cleansed, were they not?
Where are the other nine?
Has none but this foreigner returned to give thanks to God?”
Then he said to him, “Stand up and go;
your faith has saved you.”

The reflection is by John Janaro.  He is a professor emeritus of theology and the author of “Never Give Up: My Life and God’s Mercy.”

What Keeps the Lepers Going

This disease is not who I am.  The recognition of this is essential, but the translation of this judgement into a disposition of the heart requires a continual effort.  It requires prayer.  I am not entirely healed, which means I must live my relationship with God in the recognition that he wills the cloud to remain in some measure, as part of his loving plan for my life.

By God’s grace I have found that depression can be transformed into an awareness of my total dependence on God.  I must beg him continually to deepen my awareness of my need for him.  The good news, of course, is that he is here to meet that need, that dependence that really is who I am.  Jesus Christ has untied my whole life to his.  He is here, in every circumstance, in every difficulty.  The cloud says, “I am nothing.”  Humility says, “I am nothing without you.”

I noted above that depression can become a context for growing in love.  But I don’t grow in love simply by figuring this out.  It is possible to affirm, as a kind f external idea, that “God loves me” while at the same time being plunged into the cloud.  I could write a brilliant theological treatise on the love of God for every human person and still be afflicted and crushed with the sense of being worthless.  To grow in love is to grow in the heart.

I can grow because, in fact, Jesus really is here.  He takes the initiative.  He knows the depths of my sorrow, and he enters into me right there, where I think I am most alone.  If I am talking to him (prayer), it is because he is already here. And he knows the language of the heart.  He hears and understands my secret cry before I even know that I have made it.  He answers, and he promises that he is not going to give up on my.  I must never give up on him.

I sense that the cloud is not so big, because – after all – I am rather small.

“You, O God, are good.”  And the nothingness of me is filled with the goodness of God.  that is how it should be…

“Jesus, make me good.  Make me holy.  Make me yours.”

I think the reflections says it all…there is nothing else for me to say.  Only this: that we must prayer for each other on our journeys of faith.

 

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Find You On My Knees

Find You On My Knees by Kari Jobe

Troubles chasing me again,
Breaking down my best defence,
I’m looking, God, I’m looking for you
Weary just won’t let me rest and fear is filling up my head.
I’m longing, God I’m longing for you

But I will find you in the place I’m in, find you when I’m at my end,
Find you when there’s nothing left of me to offer you except for brokenness.
You lift me up, you’ll never leave me thirsty,
When I am weak, when I am lost and searching
I’ll find you on my knees.

So what if sorrow shakes my faith,
What if heartache still remains,
I’ll trust you, my god I’ll trust you.
‘Cause You are faithful and

I will find you in the place I’m in, find you when I’m at my end,
Find you when there’s nothing left of me to offer you except for brokenness.
You lift me up, you’ll never leave me thirsty,
When I am weak, when I am lost and searching
I’ll find you on my knees, my knees.

When my hope is gone, when the fear is strong
When the pain is real, when it’s hard to heal
When my faith is shaken and my heart is broken and my joy is stolen, God I know that

You lift me up, you’ll never leave me thirsty,

Find you in the place I’m in, find you when I’m at my end,
Find you when there’s nothing left of me to offer you except for brokenness.
You lift me up, you’ll never leave me thirsty,
When I am weak, when I am lost and searching
I’ll find you on my knees.

I find that this song is yet another one that really strikes me.  It is a good description of me where I am at, and as well something I wish I had more of.  I wish I could describe beyond that, but even the words I woud find would not suit what is inside of me.  My hope is jsut that I find myself on my knees begging for aide from Heaven above, open to knowing what it is when it comes.

 
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Posted by on September 29, 2012 in Inner Reflection, Inspirational Music

 

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A Place In My Heart

As one may notice, I don;t blog as often as I used to.  Perhaps I am not as inspired, or the enthusiasm for finding something to write about is missing.  It is not that I have nothing to write about, for I have a world of things I could share.  So it can still be wondered why not write more?  Most of what floods my mind, my heart, my soul, and my entire being is too personal to share with the open world.  One day perhaps.  That being said, I do have a little something for you to munch on.

I have been wishing that a song would cross my path that would give cause for some reflection, and something to share here.  The problem is, I really have only been listening to music in the car nice and loud to drown out the rest of the world inside of me.  At home, I get un-excited to listen to my iPod.  Maybe it could be the fact that there are songs there that can snap me back to reality and all the good things there for me if I put my trust in the right place.  Regardless, I was looking at the annoying ads on the right hand column of the Facebook screen and say a YouTube video and clicked on it.  This is the song that started to play.

Wow, right?  It is called “A Place in my Heart” and it is by Irvin Evans.  To me, a not-so well-known name in the Christian music world, yet appears on my ads at one of the many times that I need it the most when usually nothing comes up anywhere (that I have seen because you know, God has a million blessings everywhere and we miss them).  Strange, don’t you think?

At first, it was purely the music itself, aside from all the words, that drew me in.  This would play as a beautiful instrumental music.  Then, as I listened to the words, it feels like the hidden prayer in my heart.  As I have learned, and still see to be learning, I can’t just pray for things and hope they happen and that I will instantly heal.  I need to give something and make room in my heart for what I am being given.  This song has brought me to shed tears that I avoid letting go on a normal basis.

I want to pray this type of prayer fervently, but God, I need Your help to even talk to you.  Even to talk to Mary, Mother of all, I find myself struggling.  Let this song you have given me sink it and open my heart more and more.  I can’t do this alone.  Please fill all the places of my heart.  Amen.

 
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Posted by on September 6, 2012 in Inner Reflection, Inspirational Music

 

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Riddle of Prayer Asking

There are moments in life where one really does not want to ask for the prayers of another not matter what, but those happen to be the moments when one needs them the most.  Even when one asks, one can still feel very alone and very gone.  Then one has to think, one would feel that way if one did not ask for prayers instead.  In the end, it can’t hurt for one to ask another for prayers, even if one technically did not ask but merely implied.

 
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Posted by on August 14, 2012 in Inner Reflection

 

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Beauty from Pain

I found another song while floating around on YouTube.  It realy stuck me.  The song is “Beauty from Pain” by Superchick.

 
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Posted by on June 15, 2012 in Inspirational Music

 

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God’s Word

Reflection on God’s Word is a HUGE part of living in a Salesian convent, as I have learned in my time there.  It is something I really miss, sharing what the Holy Spirit inspires in me and hearing what comes from the reflections of others.  A dear friends of mine who has also tasted Salesian life has come up with a brilliant plan.  She and I are now in charge of a new blog together.  You can click here to check it out.

We post the Sunday readings, and perhaps more things once we get moving on it, and then you the reader comes and shares in reflection with us.  Community in this aspect is so nurturing to one’s faith life.  Please come and check us out!  We would love to have you.

 
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Posted by on June 8, 2012 in Inner Reflection, Living Salesian

 

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Simply Pray

People always say pray hard, pray like you have never prayed before.  Why not simply pray?  Sometimes one is not able to do anything but simply pray in the face of what is going on in their lives, especially in those heartbroken moments.  Even that can be a struggle.  Prayer is special, different for each person, that conversation with God.  Why not simply pray?

 
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Posted by on May 28, 2012 in Inner Reflection

 

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