I was given cause today to reflect on the point of keeping this blog. As I have known, but maybe never have had pointed out to me, this is completely opposite of me and who I am. I am not someone who goes online and publishes posts like that of which are here, especially when people I know read them. It is not a part of me that fits with the rest.
In the beginning of the life of this blog, it was suggested to me I start it as a means of sharing my vocation story. It was January of 2010 and I was in the midst of deciding whether or not to enter formation with the Salesian Sisters (aka formally, Daughters of Mary Help of Christians). I gave a brief background on the events of my life that brought me to where I was at and shared some poems/lyrics I had written in the excitement of what could possibly come next. From there, I lose track of where it went. The post have been a mix of creative writing, reflections, music, wisdom from others, stories, updates on how my life is, things that go on where I am at, and such things of the like. Now I look at it again wondering what direction I want to move in and what can make it more like me. Part of me may have run to it as a place to hear what others say, I don’t need that in the end. Part of me wants to inspire others, I still wish to do that. There has to be a better balance I must say.
In the future, there will still be blog posts. What they contain, I am not yet sure. I just know that I have been brought to think more about what I am doing here on this website where I can make anything public.