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A walk in the woods

Breeze blowing around you

Sounds that make music

Wonder and awe miraculous

Beautiful

The softness of a baby

A curious mind to a new place

The comfort  from rocking baby

A unique connection made

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Art that hangs on the wall

Sculptures that bring to life

Masterpieces drawing out tears

Pieces of work with a story

Beautiful

The way God made the world

Saving Grace in the Son

Holy Spirit guiding our ways

One of a kind plan for all

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You always you created  you

The one who hears this message

You the one God created to live

Meant to do so much you are

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Posted by on May 26, 2010 in Creative Corner

 

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Who Are You Not To Be?

I took this picture July 2009 of Denali Mountain (to those outside Alaska, it is casually known as Mount McKinley).  It was one of the most breathtaking moments of my life!  There was but one cloudy and rainy day and we were able to see the mountain every day except the last day as we were leaving.  It was a blessing that this was the case when we were there and the people said living there, it is a rare occasion to see the mountain.  I spent a good amount of time staring at it, contemplating.  Like I said previously, it was a blessing indeed and if I could have stayed and watch it forever, I would have.  To be in God’s wonder and awe was absolutely beautiful.  I was led into this prayer I was not even fully aware of existing in me!  This is what I want with my life, to live life in such grander and have such amazement filling me.  As well, to know that God sees that same beauty in me that I see in that mountain.  I see the following quote to relate to this experience.

Our greatest fear is not that we are inadequate, but that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, handsome, talented, and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We were born to make manifest the glory of God within us. It is not just in some; it is in everyone. And, as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our fear, our presence automatically liberates others.  –  Marianne Williamson

Who are we not to be great?  No, not in the egotistical way that many people may be drawn to see this as.  We are children of God born so that we may show God’s glory to everyone.  This is not just in some of us, but in all of us.  God believes in us otherwise He would have not put us in the world with such responsibility.  I found this quote, author unknown: “Just because you don’t believe in God doesn’t mean that God doesn’t believe in you!” This is something that we can really think about with our lives.  By taking the strength found in God, in Christ, we can let our light shine out for others to see.  When we let our light shine, we allow others to do the same thing.  It is truly amazing how this is, when one person’s happiness can feed another person’s happiness.

When I talk to people about wanting to enter religious life with the Salesians, to God-willing become a Daughter of Mary Help of Christians, FMA; there is something special that happens.  My excitement and smiles shine from me like more than ever, and it bounces off those I talk to and back to me, re-energizing me and reminding me of what makes me happy.  While, as I have mentioned before, I have yet to finish and turn it the application, knowing that there is hardly a thing standing in my way at this point makes things so much better.  When I finally get all the paperwork in and hear back, I can only imagine the feeling that will fill me.  It is like that of staring into the wilderness at Denali.  The awe-struck wonder that almost took my breath away in such beauty that I wish I could live with always may be found in this place, this life, that I am pursuing.

Isn’t it glorious?  Who am I not to take this step forward and follow the path it seems God has given me?  Who am I not to try and find where God’s light will shine the best in me?  Who am I not to follow Christ and be His disciple?  I am a child of God and I am going to live as so!

 
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Posted by on March 2, 2010 in Inner Reflection, Photos

 

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A Moment Beyond the Moment

Standing on the back steps, I look out to the sky.  There is something in its beauty, with the breeze brushing by, that draws me to the mystery that surrounds us all.  I am looking at history, millions of years of history staring back at me in this present moment.  At that moment of connection, the history becomes now and the now looks to history for the future.  Life lives in looking up to the sky.  For me there has been always something beyond what we see in this beauty.  While what we can can see may be as beautiful as any, even what one may say is ugly, there is another form of beauty in that beyond the physical sight.  I was drawn to want more of what I was feeling in that moment.  Everything that has been holding me down for a brief moment flew out of me and I was able to be right there in that moment looking beyond the moment to feel a presence calming me.

My whole life I have wanted more than what I was surrounded with.  Sure, there have been some amazing moments that I will never let go, but there has been a drawing for something else.  Now, with something that could potentially lead me to discovering that thing that I wish for even though I am not sure what I am being led to, I am being put to a challenge.  Of course, I still have to make this official that I am to be entering and I understand not to be so set in something because it could change, but I have felt happier than ever.  The smile runs across my face.  When I was first talking to Jen and Elfie in the bathroom at NCYC, I had no idea where it would go.  These two aspirants led me to this place in life I would have never thought I would be at.  The feeling that went over me when I made the connection between what m life was then and where it could go was astounding.  The same feeling I get when staring into the sky, walking in the bluffs, strolling the beach, and anything of that sort.

Today I sit here with conflicted increasing feelings.  The more sure I get of trying out the path of religious life with the Salesians, the harder it gets and the more afraid I become.  It is hard to be in a place now where interaction with  my friends is none and the job, though I absolutely love it and the people I encounter, is not fulfilling me to what I know is out there somewhere to do so.  Deep in me, when I close my eyes, I see someone beautiful.  This person is truly happy, something I have not always been.  This person is dancing and singing and loving.  This person wanders in the wonder an awe of God’s creation, though humanity slowly takes it away.  The person has the ability to stand in front of people and share herself with the world, the sorrows and trials, the joy and miracles, and this is something I never had the ability to do.  I want this person to come out of me and be there, as God wants me there.

Life with the sisters is something I am beginning to feel is one of the few places that will allow me to e who I truly am an desire to be.  Those that I have met and the little I know of them have already taught me so many things.  There is this peaceful, caring, fun-loving feeling to being there with the sisters.  No matter what God does with me in formation, it will be an experience that will bring out in me so much.  I can not wait for the day I get my application finished and turned in and I hear back.  God willing, I will enter into a world that is so amazing!

So when I looked to the sky tonight, I felt something.  There was a hope that filled in me that no matter how hard things were, how hard they are now, or how hard they may be; will always be there when I look to the sky and the beauty that surrounds me.  Stars glimmering, moon beaming, trees crackling, water crashing, breeze blowing, and whatever else may be bring me to learn so much.  It is a reminder of all the things that have been forced into hiding that are ready to break loose!  This moment brought me beyond the moment and I pray that God continues to reach me in this way.  I also continue to pray that God leads me in ways that are pleasing to Him!

 
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Posted by on February 27, 2010 in Inner Reflection

 

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