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The Baby Boy Who Came For Us

This morning has brought some good reflection and creativity to my mind.  While in meditation this morning, I wrote another poem.  It has been a while since I have done this.  Here it is!

As I gaze upon the baby boy in the manger

My ever-changing world is filled with hope

A Savior has come down to earth as one of us

To walk with us, as living in sin we do cope

This baby boy grew to be a man of faith

To be God among us, to save us from despair

Who knew but Him, that for us he would die

God who came as man, who for us does care

So gazing at Him in a manger so meek and lowly

A smile goes across this soul’s broken face

If Jesus came as a baby and die for us all

What can I do in return, for this human race

The readings today were so beautiful I must say!  I wish I could reflect on them all, but alas, I shall just talk about the one that we did in meditation.  It is from Matthew 6:45-52, the walking on water.  I was draw to two different things in this reading.

In the course of this story, there are many transitions.  Jesus was with the people, then He dismissed them and went alone to pray, then as He was walking on the water He had only intended to pass the disciples by, then He went in the boat with them.  How similar this is to life sometimes.  For me, I live in a community of people who I am around almost all the time all day every day.  It is always nice to be able to step aside and take time for myself to pray and re-gather myself.  Whenever I come back from that moment aside to myself, I tend to have the feeling of staying in my serenity, in my calm.  The thing is, we need to come back to community, we cannot just stay in our little place but rather be in the community and share our moments with each other.  My action for the week is taking what I gain in my individual time of prayer back to the community.  This could be in words or deeds or my actions.

The other thing that was pointed out from another aspirant.  The phrase “take courage” stood out to her.  In my translation is says “take heart.”  She is going to try to remember that phrase whenever there is a tough decision, or of the like, to be made.  For me, having her point out the difference in translation, I wondered where the courage could be taken from.  Courage comes from the heart and soul where God should abide to flow throughout our entire being. 

This all sounds good to me! 🙂


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Longing for Rich Soil

On that day, Jesus went out of the house and sat down by the sea.  Such large crowds gathered around him that he got into a boat and sat down, and the whole crowd stood along the shore.  And he spoke to them at length in parables, saying: “A sower went out to sow. And as he sowed, some seed fell on the path, and birds came and ate it up. Some fell on rocky ground, where it had little soil. It sprang up at once because the soil was not deep, and when the sun rose it was scorched, and it withered for lack of roots. Some seed fell among thorns, and the thorns grew up and choked it. But some seed fell on rich soil, and produced fruit, a hundred or sixty or thirtyfold. Whoever has ears ought to hear.”

Matthew 13:1-13

This was the bible passage my table had on my TEC (HV 55) retreat for parable skits.  It has always stood to me for different reasons at different points in life.  The explanation that Jesus gives explains that that each seed dropped on the ground correlates to how someone lives in there faith and excitement they have.

For me at times, each time the seed stands as representative of me and my faith.  The different ground types are the situations that I find myself in.  When at the retreat center, I found myself in rich soil more often that I have ever been in rich soil in ages.  Now, where I am at now, rich soil is not as common.  It is hard to find the rich soil when you are so far away from that which makes one feel most enriched.  How do you find that place of enrichment?

While the seed of my faith have been planted in rich soil, I have always felt that there is better field of soil for me out there.  That the flowers grow bigger and more beautiful then they are.  This is not to say that I should enter formation, but rather through being in formation and God-willingly continuing in that life, I should attain the greater and more beautiful in a the rich soil of Christ’s love.

With this being said, I request prayers as I transition from my time at the retreat center to starting the first day of the rest of my life when I fly out to the Salesians.  Thank you!  Peace!

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Posted by on July 23, 2010 in Inner Reflection


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Sharing Faith Until the Whole World Hears

Here is one of the latest songs from Casting Crowns.  If you go to the official website for the band you can find the info I am about to provide.  Here is what is said about the song and its info.  It is word for word from the band, as well as the lyrics, so please do not consider it from me.

The title track comes from my mentor in student ministry, Roger Glidewell. He always closed his e-mails with the phrase “until the whole world hears.” Our goal is to live our lives telling others about Jesus – until the whole world hears. John the Baptist was the voice crying out in the wilderness, eating grasshoppers, and speaking into the world about their sin. Speaking out in the wilderness is never popular, but in the body of Christ. we’ve got to do it in love. – Mark Hall

[“Until the Whole World Hears” also includes the voices of the congregation from Eagle’s Landing First Baptist Church, where Hall has served as Student Pastor for eight years.]

Matthew 5:16 / Matthew 28:19-20 / Mark 16:15 / John 9:5 / Hebrews 13:20-22 / James 2:19 / John 1:1-42 / Matthew 24:14

Lord, I want to feel with Your heart
See the world through Your eyes
I want to be Your hands and feet
I want to live a life that leads

Ready yourselves, ready yourselves
Let us shine the light of Jesus in the darkest night
Ready yourselves, ready yourselves
May the powers of darkness tremble as our praises rise

Until the whole world hears, Lord, we are calling out
Lifting up Your name for all to hear the sound
Like voices in the wilderness we’re crying out
And as the day draws near, we’ll sing until the whole world hears

Lord, let Your sleeping giant rise
Catch the demons by surprise
Holy nations sanctify
Let this be our battle cry

Ready yourselves, ready yourselves
Let us shine the light of Jesus in the darkest night
Ready yourselves, ready yourselves
May the powers of darkness tremble as our praises rise

Woah, woah, sing until the whole world hears
Woah, woah, sing until the whole world hears

I want to be Your hands and feet
I want to live a life that leads
To see You set the captive free
Until the whole world hears
And I pray the day will see
More of You and less of me
Lord, I want my life to be
The song You sing

Woah, woah, we’ll sing until the whole world hears
Woah, woah, we’ll sing until the whole world hears

Until the whole world hears.  This is what we should be striving for in life.  Spreading the faith until the whole world hears.  What a task to be lived each and everyday!  Wait, what?  You think you can not do it because you don’t do church work type things?  You are wrong.  We were commissioned to spread the news of Jesus Christ to the whole world and not stop until everyone hears.  Below is a passage from the Gospel of Matthew stating this Great Commission.

The eleven disciples proceeded to Galilee, to the mountain which Jesus had designated.  When they saw Him, they worshiped Him; but some were doubtful.  And Jesus came up and spoke to them, saying, “All authority has been given to Me in heaven and on earth.  Go therefore and make disciples of all the nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and the Son and the Holy Spirit, teaching them to observe all that I commanded you; and lo, I am with you always, even to the end of the age.  – Matthew 28:16-20

In everything we do, everything we say, everything we think, in absolutely everything; we must spread our faith in ways that are suiting to what God is calling us to do.  God has a plan for each of us and within that is the call to share the faith until the whole world hears.  How many other forms can I put this in to make it clear!?

For me it may seem a little more cut and dry, but that does not mean it is an easy thing by any means.  God’s plan has now put me waiting to enter formation this August 24th.  I will be studying, praying, and all else in order that I might become a Daughter of Mary Help of Christians in approximately four years.  The Salesian Sisters just had this thing that drew me in.  Now, I have always prayed and hoped that I could be God’s hands and feet, seeing the world form His point of view in order that I may reach out where I am meant to reach.  The thing is, this is not how I thought I would be spreading faith until the whole world hears.  With that said, I am so excited.  What a better way to live my life but married to Christ doing His work that I have been commissioned to do!

I pledge that I am going to sing until the whole world hears.  In my love of music, my love of dance, my love of my faith and the fire within me I am going to give it all I have and pray that it is enough to satisfy God!  Will you go out and face the world with your faith like I am?  As a community we have the power to do many thing and catch those demons by surprise.

Watch out because I’ll share my faith until the whole world hears!

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Posted by on May 25, 2010 in Inner Reflection, Inspirational Music


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God and the Devil are Fighting

God and the devil are fighting… and the battlefield is the heart of man.

– Fyodor Dostoyevsky

Wow, is this ever a true statement for me.  Inside of me there does feel like there is a constant battle going on.  It is amazing all the things that can go on inside of us!  God wants us and he has a place by His side for us doing wonderfully marvelous stuff.  On the flip side, the Devil has taken his stabs at our hearts hoping to take control.  For me this is a huge issue that I am battling.

This weekend at the Women’s retreat, that I was able to participate in, I let myself break down Saturday night with all the worry and stress that I have been feeling lately.  It was such a blessing to have some amazing people on the retreat that stood/sat by my side and let me feel what I needed to feel.  While my closest friends are the most amazing things to me, these friends that I have found are great to me. 

Our theme was surrounded around finding our light amidst the darkness as well as recognizing the darkness as a holy darkness.  Throughout the whole weekend I had the quote I presented to you in my head.  Darkness tend to be associated most with the devil and times of difficulty.  Light tends to be associated most with God and the good things that Jesus has made possible for us to achieve. 

The thing is, when that darkness comes we need to lift it up to God and reach for his light.  So many people, me definitely included, get so caught up in the dark and do not see beyond it to the light that is left on for us from God.  That light can come straight from the big man Himself, friends, family, your surroundings, the great outdoors and many different things.  Holding onto that and giving everything to the light, to God, will make the darkness holy. 

How can darkness be Holy one may ask?  Well, when you give that pain and suffering to God you are shoving all the efforts of the devil back in his face.  The devil wants so much to take you over and win you soul for himself.  God wants equally the same and will wait there with the light on for you to come.  Giving your dark to God to be made into light turns the darkness into holy darkness.  We can learn from our dark moments; the lessons perhaps are the most meaningful to many people who suffer deep dark moments.  Sure, there are things we wish never were or we wish that we had never done, but there are some lessons to be had.  All this as long as we turn around and give our darkness to God to be turned to light. 

Of course I am telling all of you this and not relating at all, so how in the world could I know anything on this topic?  In my life, as has been mentioned before, I have hit some low points that I am not proud of.  I have thought about things one should never think about in their lives.  I have cried so many tears you would think I should be a shriveled up wrinkled ball of mess (yes it is okay to laugh, it is a funny image).  All in the same, I have had many lights in my life that have shown me out of the dark moments in time.  My friends are perhaps my greatest blessing in this world.  God truly shines through them.  They have pulled me through many things and given me back the light of God.  Holy Darkness.  Lessons were surely had and taken deep into my heart. 

So when the battlefield is in your heart with a fight between God and the Devil, remember to take the darkness you maybe feeling no matter how dark and give it all to God.  That way, he will turn it to lessons and light, winning the battle for your heart.  It is hard, I am not going to say otherwise, but it is so worth it when you make it through and there is true joy in your heart.  The true joy of finding God and being where He wants you to be.  Will your heart be the broken battlefield won by the Devil or will God reign with His light in your entire being?  Be the light of the world to each other and darkness will be Holy and we will live in joy! 

“You are the light of the world” Matthew 5:14


Posted by on May 16, 2010 in Inner Reflection, Retreat Experience


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A Lenten Prayer for Guidance

A Lenten Prayer for Guidance

What is it Lord?

What do you want of me?

For giving of food is not enough,

but then do you wish me to do?

To be closer to you I do long.

To go to the desert with you I want.

How shall I do this?

Where can I go to hear your voice?

In prayer I can land,

by the hours of the varying sorts.

Lord guide me to you,

God give me the strength to do your will,

Spirit move in all my being,

So that I may give of myself what you wish.

-Yours Truly

When Lent comes around, a lot of people first think of giving up food as a default, but think nothing of the other things that on can give of themselves.  I do not undermine the importance of giving up food or facebook to some people because for some it really does provide a roadblock to seeing Christ.  For me, I do not see food or things on the web to be a hindrance to my life, living with Christ in me.  My focus comes in many forms of prayer and reflection.  As to what exactly I will be doing, one does not need to know unless on a must tell situation (like stepping out from work and other related things).  Look at this reading for today, Matthew 6:16, 16-18.

Jesus said to his disciples:
“Take care not to perform righteous deeds
in order that people may see them;
otherwise, you will have no recompense from your heavenly Father.
When you give alms,
do not blow a trumpet before you,
as the hypocrites do in the synagogues and in the streets
to win the praise of others.
Amen, I say to you,
they have received their reward.
But when you give alms,
do not let your left hand know what your right is doing,
so that your almsgiving may be secret.
And your Father who sees in secret will repay you.
“When you pray,
do not be like the hypocrites,
who love to stand and pray in the synagogues and on street corners
so that others may see them.
Amen, I say to you,
they have received their reward.
But when you pray, go to your inner room,
close the door, and pray to your Father in secret.
And your Father who sees in secret will repay you.

“When you fast,
do not look gloomy like the hypocrites.
They neglect their appearance,
so that they may appear to others to be fasting.
Amen, I say to you, they have received their reward.
But when you fast,
anoint your head and wash your face,
so that you may not appear to be fasting,
except to your Father who is hidden.
And your Father who sees what is hidden will repay you.”

When we are so used to being in community in the Catholic Church, sharing in our faith lives with others, this is somewhat an odd concept.  We share in miracles that have occurred, in ways that the Spirit moves.  Then there is the Lenten season.  I see this as a way to take into us Christ, more than any other moment in live that we would do so.  We take ourselves into the desert and dig deep into ourselves.  God is calling us to be in solidarity with His Son and know the love that is there for us.  I strive to be mindful of what I am being called to do each day.  I wish to continue to prepare myself for formation to be a sister as I feel God wants me to do.  Lord, whatever you want I will strive to do.

Fact: Distinct characteristics of the Salesian spirituality are the three devotions that have been part of their prayers since the beginning.  This is one of them: “Love for Jesus in the Blessed Sacrament. It is He who fires our soul with a love that compels others to Him.”

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Posted by on February 17, 2010 in Creative Corner, Living Salesian


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