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Blessings to Help with Difficulties

It is the blessings that one must remember throughout all the difficult times.  Those are what will hold you together when something comes your way that you are not really sure you will be able to handle. 

One of the more recent blessings in my life has been the chance to go back to Cape May Point to Mary’s House with Jen.  It had been a while since we were able to hang out with each other…fooling around, playing games, praying, talking, and all that awesome stuff.  Jen and I got pretty close over the year with some of our similarities.  God granted us a chance to hang out and enjoy each others’ company.

Last night I got to walk around Centennial Lakes with Nicole.  We had been trying to talk and catch up for the past couple weeks or so, since she tried to get a hold of me.  It is amazing how the distance between us never changes how close we are and how much we trust each other.  She is someone I will never lose in my life.

Blessings, I could go through a whole list of them.  All my friends that helped me through those hard times and continue to help me now with my struggles.  They are the biggest blessings.  There are so many moments that God has given me to help me on my way.

So why am I afraid?  What is missing within me that makes my journey a little harder than some people who I know?  Will it make me all the stronger in then end?  Do the difficulties and struggles mean I am not worthy enough to do this great work for God that I am aiming for?  No.  It means there is something different and unique about me.  It means I need to remember even more those blessings in my life.  God has a plan in my life, and I will follow it to the best of my abilities.

 
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Posted by on June 1, 2011 in Inner Reflection

 

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Short List of the Adventure

Hello everyone!  I know that it has been a long time since I have posted on here and I just wanted to check in! 🙂  Right now, my brain is at partial function, so I am going to give you the run down of what happened in short version between the dates of December 17th and January 4th. 

I went for a home visit during this time span.

The first weekend I went back to Mary’s House for the third Advent Retreat.

My flight was a late flight, then it was later.

Christmas shopping last minute is always an interesting thing.

My gifts were great that I got, so thank you to everyone!

Three Christmas’ always wear you out.

I was home for New Years for the first time in a long time…that was interesting.

Shopping for things that I only got partially proved an adventure.

I got to see my friend Nicole, it was great!

I did not get to see Jocelyn…but we can skype I am sure.

Flying back was uneventful.

It is good to be back, but there is going to be a lot more for me to work on.

 
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Posted by on January 4, 2011 in Travels

 

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My Heart’s Desires

Was it God’s plan to place my heart in a couple places

To have me feel deeply connected to all so strong

Never knowing if in all my body to place with the heart

Praying God has planned for all always in this life

After this past TEC weekend, I have been given a lot more things to think about and came across many realizations or re-realizations about myself.  My heart lays in more than one place. How can I take them all with me in my life actively?

One of which is the TEC program, especially at Riverbend TEC.  The RB TEC people are my family, a family that I cherish very much.  This retreat program has been so huge in my getting to where I am at.  It was even a part of the conversation that initially led me to go see the booth for the Salesians at NCYC.  Hearing from the vocations director, Sr. C., that she thinks is could still be a part of mlife as I go on is some comfort.  I do have to talk to the provincial about it, but at least there is some hope.  If it can not be in my life, I am not sure what I would do.  It sounds like me putting conditions on God’s plan, but it is honestly vital to my faith life, the experiences had.  I can not even being to explain the passion and love I feel when I am working a TEC retreat.

Another thing that I have felt particularly strong about is going through a retreat to have a training on being a Christian Clown.  There is a weekend that some people do that take us through how to do the make-up, selecting a name and a look (face and outfit).  This is something I have been really drawn too, but there has not been a chance for me to make a weekend yet.  I am hoping that I can do it the next time they have it!  For some reason is just intrigues me and I want so much to be a part of the community of people who do it!

I spent ten months in the most southern tip of New Jersey at a retreat center, lovingly called Mary’s House.  There is no way that I can never go back to the place!  I really hope that I get the chance to make it back a a place that has really helped to form me this past year.  It is hard, no doubt.

Then of course there is the upcoming entrance (18 Days!) into formation with the Salesians.  God was very funny in how He got me to this point, that is for sure.  I am really excited to enter, but as well very nervous.  There are the constant questions of whether or not I am making the right choice.  I really just need to go and see what happens and how I feel about being there.  It is a larger group, so we will see too how I handle that.  I do better in smaller groups, but maybe this is a lesson for me to learn.  It is not like I have never been in a larger group, but it can be uncomfortable sometimes for me.  The Salesians are wonderful from what I have seen thus far, and I get the chance to work with youth.  Hopefully as time goes on and if I stay, I will have the chance ot work in retreat work, a huge passion of mine and what I love most in life a lot of times (aside from those close friends).

My heart is many places, including with a couple of my really close friends, and I need to balance it.  Did God mean for me to have my heart in so many places?  AM I suppose to let go of somethings?  If so, what things do I let go of and what means the most to me?  I keep praying that I will be able to be involved in all of these things as they are really where I am supposed to keep my heart.

Into God’s hands I must give my heart’s desires

To be left in hope that all will actively live in me

These communities that have become my family

Ones that I pray God keeps me in for my whole life

 

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The Words I Would Say: A Way to Live Life

“The Words I Would Say” by Sidewalk Prophets

There are many theme songs in my life, but I would say that this one has been on the more recent end of my favorites.  This past year while serving at Mary’s House this song had been ringing in my mind in a special way.  It was on the radio often and we had used it for one or two retreats in the year.  Given the things I have gone through in my own life, as well as the stuff in my life currently, it is such an appropriate song.  There are also some friends that I would dedicate this song to as well!  This past weekend on RB TEC 231, this was the theme song for the weekend.  When I found out, I nearly cried because of how God works in life.  This song which meant so much to me, was now a part of this weekend.  You never know where little signs and God experiences will pop up.

Be strong in the Lord and never give up hope.  Ho much easier our lives would be if we would only do just as that.  The Lord is always there.  Sometimes we may not get answers to the prayers, but don’t lose hope because He works in unique ways in His time.  You are going to do great things, I already know.  How do I know?  God has so many things planned for all of us if we keep that hope in Him and go where our hearts are guided.  God’s got His hand on you so don’t life life in fear.  Fear draws us away from that which we are called to.  Yes, it is hard to know God’s hand is in your life sometimes, but we have to stay open.  Forgive and forget, but don’t forget why you’re here.  Never forget why you are here, God put you here.  Take your time and pray.  Even though you may not hear back from the big man Himself, pray pray pray.  Things will happen, believe me, I know.  God met me in the bathroom of all places.  We must remember we are beautiful, we are wonderful, we are loved beyond comparison.  These are the words I would say.

 

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Some Moments of Mary’s House

My ten months is completed.  They were some of the best months of my life that I have ever had.  The people are ones that I will never forget.  In packing up the last of my things there was a sadness from parting.   Mary’s House is not something very special to me.  I have noticed that when I do something of this type of time and/or nature, I put my whole self into its being.  This basically means that a part of me will be left behind at Mary’s House.  Sitting in the small Blessed Sacrament chapel this past Friday I cried.  What about?  I was not sure at first what it could be.  It then had dawned on me that I will miss that place very much and am leaving that part of me behind.  I never thought I would connect myself there as strongly as I have.  There have been the ups and the downs.  There greats and the definatly not so greats.

Program, oh my the program that we put out of there.  It is crazy and wonderful what happens at Mary’s house.  People come back again and again!  If I have not mentioned before, the theme this summer is “Everyday Families…Everyday Heroes.”  It was a wonderful theme!  Every year for the summer program, there is a Pecos Mime Dance as well as a Commitment dance that is done by the teens or young adults during two different prayer services.  Before leaving, I got myself a copy of the music so I can remember the dances.  It is so powerful and amazing.  I am hoping that next year, I can get some of the girls to do the dances for something.

Mary’s House is amazing and if you want to know more or check it out, please let me know.  It changed me in great ways and it could do that for you too.

 
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Posted by on July 11, 2010 in Inner Reflection, Retreat Experience

 

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