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Entering into Communion with Christ Through Mary

Tonight was our medal ceremony, it was amazing!  We sang and it was great.  Here are some poems to express what is in me.

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The butterflies were fluttering everywhere

Pacing were our feet this way and that

Preperations of last minute to be done

Prayers that prayer is to go smooth sailing

Time finally arrived that which was here

A moment of which we have waited for

Before we know it all became a blur of time

Songs were sung with such great gusto

Readings read with passion deep within

Symbol of our devotion blessed indeed

Hang now around our necks proudly

Moment passes by and hugs are passed

Smiles now shine brightly from our faces

And the butterflies fly free once again

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In all those moments past

Move on I have now done

Mary hangs around my neck

Blessed that she always is

Joy runs through my blood

Smile beams across my face

Heart pounds out of my chest

I want to dance for the Lord

Sing out with all my being

Oh what love could beat this

That which God has given

Shared passion with the world

Tears of happiness fall

Feelings of greatness fill me

Stay is will I pray it so

This life to live all the days

With a future that is bright

 
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Posted by on September 8, 2010 in Inner Reflection, Living Salesian

 

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We Have To Pray (a spur of the moment poem)

I am sitting at my desk and all of a sudden this poem came out of me.  Please Enjoy!

The days start to get long

My mind is a jumbled song

As summer retreat does come

Soon I go to where I came from

With many memories had

Leaving this place will be sad

But my future ahead is planned

Any expectations are canned

What I wish to come true

Is what I shall come to do

But in time I must wait

Which at times I can hate

Patience I must truly aquire

In my heart is an unique fire

It burns in my heart and soul

Leaves me with joy feeling full

So as long days may be

Or even short you see

With either I must this say

In everything we have to pray

 
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Posted by on June 18, 2010 in Creative Corner

 

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Fire

There is something magical and special about a fire, one in the form of a “campfire.”  I don’t have much to say about it, but I know that I always long to be back at camp.  One of the big things in that is the longing to be around the campfire.  Since the lessons and stories of fire are on my mind, I have decided to share that all with you.  Below is a poem I just constructed on the whim of my mind.  I hope you find something that draws to you in it! Peace

Oh fire that crackles in the silence of the night

Speak to me even when I am in blinded sight

There are lessons a plenty to be taught

The wisdom that comes through the ages sought

Stories dance in the air around us lingering

Song that will go on forever in our hearts singing

As the past fades away in the dust of eternity

Present pushes on and it closes engulfs me

In the flames the future flickers with hope

Unsure of where flame will leap I pray I cope

Wherever you may be, whoever you will become

There is space for fire, it will still teach you some

Evermore the silence of the night draws my soul

Hearing the glow intrigues me and fills me full

In the moments to come where life finds its way

My vocation religious could maybe be here to stay

When the world crashes and falls around my face

To the fire I will go to be in that special place

 
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Posted by on April 22, 2010 in Creative Corner, Inner Reflection

 

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Affirmation of the Future

This weekend someone mentioned to me this, and I was like, wow.  I was told by someone who was here at the retreat center that after only knowing me but maybe a half an hour, she could see right away that I have a vocation with religious life.  Weird…

 
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Posted by on April 18, 2010 in Inner Reflection

 

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Worn Out And Exhausted

This is what I feel like today

A tired fills my entire body

Worn out and exhausted

Busy work wears me down

Doing nothing tires me out

Thinking about the future

Puts me in a disarray

Peace I do hold somewhere

So laying down spread out

The place I wish to be

So that the tired is awake

The lazy is full of energy

The disarray turns into peace

Complete peace full of smiles

Exhausted I am at the time

I wish to do just at this

What I did in that photo

I cannot even start to tell you the many things can contribute to the exhausted feeling that I have in me.  The crappy weather today, the boredom, the busy work, the focus on many thoughts about religious life, worry of my family coming to visit, and much more in me waiting to burst.  Basically, if I could do what I was doing there, I totally would.  Relax, calm down, let the mind settle, and soak up the sun so that I may be refreshed and do what need to be done in a smiling, peaceful, clear minded way.  Pray, pray fully involved in the prayer.  That would be great to achieve that, I cannot wait.

 
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Posted by on March 26, 2010 in Creative Corner, Inner Reflection, Photos

 

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Some Things I Have Learned

As time goes one, and I think even more about my future, I have learned a few things.  One thing I am already familiar with; I am a very deep thinker.  When it comes to big decisions, or even small trivial ones, I will weigh out absolutely everything about each thing that I could choose.  This presents itself an issue at times.  It leads me to asking just about every what if and any other question there could possible be asked.  For example…

Do sisters go swimming?  Can I swim at the lake in the summer with my family? (Keep in mind this is more of a question for FOUR years from now…)

Can I bring my books? movies? music?

How often do I get to see my friends?

What if I am completely wrong and heard God wrong…look at all this hoop-la I have created!?

What if what I believe in does not exist?

How do I handle doing this sister thing for the rest of my life?

Skirts…not always good for people like me when ungraceful, can I wear leggings (even colorful ones!) underneath?

Will I be able to go work TEC retreats or can I go work/participate in retreats at the Marianist Retreat Center?

Let me tell you, the list goes on and on and on forever.  Somedays they are the same questions, somedays they are very much different.  Most the time, they fly in and out of my mind.  I do have to say, the one about swimming and about wearing random colored leggings underneath the habit or the uniform in formation are common questions in my mind.  Is this weird that I am asking these things?  No, I guess not, so I am told.  Deep thinker, can one tell?

I love to write, poetry mostly.  Every now and then you get a psalm out of me, or some lyrics.  One of these days, a friend of mine (not sure which one yet) will get some music to them.  It is there that what is in me pours out the best onto paper.  Sometimes, as I have learn, things that I would nto have expected to come across pours from my entire being through my hands into words.  I have learned to appreciate better the words I write.  An artist is his/her biggest critic, but that artisit need to realize the beauty within themselves.  God doesn’t make junk, and since that makes one not junk, nor is what they create.

Finally, as much as I freak out and worry and rethink my choice to go forward with entering into formation for religious life, I think I really want it in some deep level of my being.  When the topic of religious life first came up, it did intrigue me quite a bit, but I paid no mind to its possibilities in my life.  As it came up at other times, I do see now that I was never saying no, but I would get as close to it as possible.  Me, a religious sister, you have to be kidding me, right?  When that moment in the bathroom came, and two worlds collided, I was not sure what to think, but only to follow those two people who seemed to have what I wanted.  Working with youth, nad furthermore retreats, then this underlying thought of religious life that sat in me!  How in the world does this happen to me, bizzare ways of discovering things.

At some level, I was relieved.  God gave me something to put on my chalkboard.  I say chalkboard because I used to think that my level was a black void nothing that would lead no where that would be good.  Instead, I see it now as a chalkboard that was slowly being wiped clean so that God could write His plans out for me to study so I can go take the ultimate test, living for Him!

I have learned, you need to be open and see the world for what it is in its simple beauty.  You need to be open to the creativity that is within you.  It is ok to question, but don’t let it consume you.  Be who God made you as, so in essence, be you, who else could you be?  God has a plan for me as you may have noticed, what is yours?

 
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Posted by on February 12, 2010 in Inner Reflection

 

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