This morning before meditation (mind you…before 5:40) I was reading through the readings and reflections from the past two days, as I had not the time to look at the reflections. There is part of the reflection from this past Saturday that really stood out to me. The reading it was based on was John 7:40-53. Here is the part that stood out to me.
So what does your experience tell you about Jesus? There is so much the Holy Spirit wants to reveal to you. There is so much he wants to explain, illuminate, and clarify, not so that you can boast in knowledge but to take your relationship with him to a deeper level. Don’t be content simply to listen to other people’s explanations or description, as helpful and illuminating as it can be. Seek him out for yourself. Listen to him. Ask him questions. Invite him to teach and direct you, as you learn to listen to his Holy Spirit.
And when something stirs your heart, pursue it. Compare it to Scripture and teaching, but test it out yourself as well. Step out in faith. See if it bears fruit. Don’t be afraid to make mistakes. God knows your heart. He can see when you are taking steps, however tentative, our of love and a desire to know him better. He’s big enough to make up for any missteps along the way, too. He’s very good at gently correcting us and keeping us (or the people around us) from major mistakes. All he wants is that we know him better and better. All he wants is that we become more and more convinced that he is our Lord and Savior. Don’t you want that too?
I just want to leave that with you to ponder over. It really struck me hard as I read it this morning. I hope it hits you in some way as well.