During prayer one time, yesterday if I am not mistaking, the prayer leader picked a song that fit how I was feeling at that moment. It is called “Jesus, My Everything” by Matt Maher.
With all the struggles that come with being in a place of formation with a group of other women, it is so easy to get distracted form what really brought us here and what really keeps us here in this place. We all our longing for our purpose and place in being here. The trouble lies that when we are all looking for the our place, we clash and runinto each other, making our purpose fall away. We struggle because we don’t know what God could even have planned for us in this world. In that sturggle then with the losing track of where we are, we fall hard and sometimes end up in temptation of sin, big or small. The prayer is to let this all pass so that we can be truly a disciple with nothing standing in the way.
For me it is a constant battle, as it always has been. The type of fighting has just varied as time has gone on. There has not been one day that I have not found myself frustrated with something. With that it is hard to remember why I am here. It is in prayer that I try to bring my self back by laying it all down at Jesus’ feet and praying that I may follow Him more closely each day. That being said, I now what to share a quote I found on another person’s blog.
“Vocation does not come from wilfulness. It comes from listening. I must listen to my life and try to understand what it is truly about—quite apart from what I would like it to be about—or my life will never represent anything real in the world, no matter how earnest my intentions…. Vocation does not mean a goal that I pursue. It means a calling that I hear”.
Herbert Alphonso, SJ
Listening, something that I have talked about before. We need to listen to each other, listen deep within our hearts, listen to what God in the Trinity is saying, and just plain old listen to whatever there is to hear that could help up in our journeys and to lessen conflict. It is amazing what we realize when we listen. Things talked about in the song could be non-existent with the help of listening.
In the end, don’t forget to pray. Let Jesus be your everything and listen with your whole heart and mind to Him. That is the reason I am where I am today. Peace.