It is the morning, approximately 8:20, and I am staring at the floor of stuff that I need to pack to leave. So many things swarm my mind and my feelings are all over the place so much that I am not even sure if I am thinking or feeling anything at all. Packing puts me in a numb and sends me over the edge with emotion and frustration that things just don’t pack themselves. No, this is not attributed to the fact that I wait until the day before, or night, to get things in the bags that they are to travel in. It is more to the fact that me and packing is not exactly a good combination once we moved past the clothes and into the ordeals of sweatshirts into all the other little things. Starting earlier might help, you say? Well, that only adds to the craziness by reason of it sits there longer and I worry more about what I packed, how I packed it, and the list goes on. So, here I sit this morning staring at what needs to be done, what needs to go, and what needs to stay. I must make it work.
9:30 it now is. I have shower, found my ring under the couch, and there are still things to pack. My webcam has made a run for its life, so I may have to go without it. The deodorant has also gone missing and the new one it packed away in the deep confines of my suitcase to be checked. As the time draws near for me to leave, I fear so many things to go wrong, to not have done right, to have forgotten. All these I must wipe away and continue forth in what I believe God wants me to do.
The hour has rolled around, it is 10am and I believe everything is packed that can be. Photos will have to wait as they weigh more than I want to carry in my backpack. Those will have to come back after the Christmas holidays. As I lifted my suitcase, a fear settled that it may be over the 50 lbs that it must be under in order to not pay more than need be. That scares me as what can I take from there? It is all clothes any very little else. Now I must enlist my dad to lift the bag and get his opinion.
10:15 and it has been decided to go over to my grandparents to do the grand weighing of the bags. We shall see what will go and what will stay. This is very crazy, what I have to bring, what I want to bring, and what I can bring. Little do I know as to what I actually want to do with some stuff. I fear that there will be too much that I don’t need. I fear that there is not enough.
10:30 and my family is driving me nuts.
Okay, the time is now 10:50. I have just gotten off the phone with Jocelyn and it was good to hear her voice. I am guessing that now is the time that I should finish this post and sign off form this computer. Do not fear, I will be back. We get to stay connected online; there are community computers to use so that will be good. I have hit a semi loss for words moment and do not know what to say. Now shall be the time to go eat something and make sure I am set to go. Peace everyone. Please come visit my site often as I go through this journey!